An alcoholic since 13

Hey. What's up yall! Im new to here. Came here because im struggling with alcohol since 13 and im failing in life. No health insurance and barely afford therapy because i drink so much so 7cups will do it meanwhile. Im semi drunk as i write this but i havent had an easy life. Been through all sorts of abuse since a young kid. Now that im 22 im barely making it. Have only 900 in my bank account. Had 4k went down to 900 from drinking and using drugs due to my depression and anxiety. Ive attempted suicide many time under the influence I just hope someone can relate to me. Much love to yall