It’s getting bad

Hello, I am underage and ever since I was 10 i started getting drunk. At first I thought nothing would go wrong. I proceeded to drink alcohol and whenever it was available at home I would drink. At 12 years old I have had 2 alcohol poisonings. The first one was definitely more severe. I threw up the entire night and in the morning I also threw up after eating a single bite of a banana. Eventually I stopped throwing up but I pretty much felt nauseous the whole day. The second alcohol poisoning didn’t cause me that much throwing up but it gave me drowsiness and headaches. And that night I was unable to sleep. And despite the fact that I was hungover really badly twice I still didn’t learn my lesson and proceeded to drink alcohol. I can’t even drink it in moderation. Whenever I drink a little bit of it I do everything possible to get more ASAP. And the worst thing about the whole situation is the age I did such things at. I usually don’t tell it to anyone because I feel embarrassed of myself for doing this. And I am not sure if that’s the reason, but I’ve been noticing changes in my mental health. I have been developing anger issues and depression-like symptoms. I’m not self diagnosing but I am definitely noticing changes in myself and I am suspecting that this alcohol problem causes everything.