Ready to recover from Alcohol Abuse 🕊
So, I made a threat in another forum because I’m new to the app and didn’t realize there was a place to discuss addiction.
I’m 35, She/Her, vast history of mental illnesses. Since the pandemic started, my OCD, depression, anxiety and eating disorders spiked like crazy and I started using alcohol to self medicate.
Things got out of control. Now I’m alone abroad and will be able to meet with my husband again only in two months (international marriage). I feel lonely on top of anxious, depressed, etc. I’ve been drinking every day copious amounts, wasting an embarrassing amount of money, acting reckless, not caring if I live or die, binge eating reappeared as well.
When suicidal ideation and intrusive thoughts because too strong I decided that it was enough. I need to recover.
Getting this huge weight off my shoulders is the first step. Even though I would never judge anyone for this I’m incredibly harsh with myself. I feel unworthy of love, of life, of anything good.
But I’m ready to take control of my life, and for the first time since I can remember, I feel hope...
Thanks for listening!!! 🤗🙏🏻🕊❤️
*THREAD!! I made a thread lol. Couldn’t edit that. I think you must have figured it out but just in case, I didn’t make any threats lol 😆
@holdingtohope I'm in the same place right now. I also have multiple mental/neurological disorders and drink from boredom, depression, to be more social. But my health is suffering. so i has to stop.
@Hebwitch2009 ❤️ Oh, I totally hear you and my heart goes to you. I’ve also tried to use alcohol in a same way.
It is tough at the beginning. But there’s a point at which we just need to be strong and put our health and well-being first.
Friday evening here and I stayed sober, which is hard because it’s rather common for people to drink on Friday. Plus I’m going through some heartbreak and processing many things. But I have a sense of peace today, just having my Kombucha and my homemade dinner, alone at home.
Oh, I also bought a moisturizing face mask and a very pretty lip gloss plumper to treat myself 👸🏻
You’re not alone!!! Never hesitate to reach out. Sending you love and healing vibes ⭐️❤️