Struggling
I hate myself. I drank way too much last night, I got out of control. Today I can't stand who I am or where I'm at. I feel like a burden to my friends and family. My life feels like a mess. My physical space is a mess. All I want to do is lay in bed and sleep because when I'm asleep, I don't have these thoughts. I need help but I don't know how to get it. I want to get sober and healthy. I need encouragement. I'm struggling so much being locked up in my house, because I would run to the church down the street and get into a support group if I could. I'm tired of living this way.
@honestBalsam4719
Thank you for sharing this with us. I see you are struggling a lot and it would be a great idea that you get some additional support with a therapist or a support group. I am also here, virtually supporting you in your path. 
@honestBalsam4719
I am sorry that you are struggling, I imagine it is really hard. I hope you can find the strenght to find help and keep trying. Maybe small steps like first looking for a group nearby even if i is online or/and finding a therapist. I wish you the best, dont give up, you can do it
Thanks y'all, I just reached out to a counseling agency and will hopefully be able to start weekly therapy very soon. I'm just so sick of living this way. This is a big step for me.
@honestBalsam4719
i understand pretty much exactly what you're saying. I've recently found myself back in that same place. There's a way out, I've done it before, but finding the way again has been difficult.
