advice, support

I can’t stop.. i don’t care how many fights i cause or bridges i burn, how much shit i break or cars i wreck, i always choose the bottle.. and this isn’t a beer a day, this is me guzzling a handle of whiskey before noon completely by myself... by the time my husband gets home I’m usually plastered or on the verge of blacking out... i battle with mental health issues heavily and i know alcohol doesn’t help but I’ve literally met people, found out they didn’t drink and cut them off, like alright get out... i don’t know how to cope or what to do, the urge is so strong.. too strong