Trying to Control my emotions
I've been a lifelong drug addict. But since my husband's death I'm completely depressed. I can't get myself to do anything productive. I make small advancements in the amount I use. Then I go backwards. Trying to control my emotions & the loneliness without him
@Olivvia22 is giving up substance abuse something you actually want to do?
Yes of course I do! I've wasted so many years on this addiction. Detoxing and relapsing over and over. I recently went to detox, twice in the last 6 months. But this time, the loss of my husband made me just not care about anything. I've been running from these emotions... I'm just not dealing with it. I'm depressed and I don't have motivation to do anything. It's been 8 months. I know I can't use this as an excuse anymore. I need to seek a grief and loss therapist.
@Olivvia22 that's good that you want to give up💖 but yeah I can imagine this is the wrong time to have to do it🙁 8 months is still very recent 😥 there is no time limit on grieving💖 a doctor or therapist would be a good start for you 💖 but when your ready and of course of you want to💖 and don't forget you have us here at cups🙂 always waiting with arms wide open to hug you and a shoulder to cry on, you don't have to go through anything alone 💖
Every morning I wake up alone and I am unable to get anything done. Can't keep appointments can't get anything productive accomplished. Then I fall deeper in to my depression and hating myself.. my psych meds are not doing any thing to help with this type of depression. So I didn't bother to refill them. I'm self medicating to manage my emotions. Some thing I've always done but currently it's the only thing I'm doing with time. Using, sleeping.... Crying a lil