Afraid to tell anyone, even myself
I skipped work today, just to be alone and get stoned. I've been pondering on and off lately whether or not I'm addicted. I did manage to cut down in recent weeks but I'm afraid that's just because I started a new job and my parents are always home due to covid. I feel so guilty. I was a super straight edge kid until a few years back, I feel like I lost myself somewhere.
@conscientiousNick
I am assuming your talking about weed. The simpelest answer is to stop for yourself and for them. You dont want to mess work up and you don't want your parents to become upset. How bad is the addiction/cravings?
@conscientiousNick
The good news is that cannabis is not addicting in the sense of having no withdrawl like alchohol, tobacco, and other substances.
I wouldn't put too much energy in feeling bad about something that easily be considered a mental health day. You used your time off to practice coping skills. We all have our days, and need time to recharge our batteries in different ways.
@VivianTheBoy that is true, but I have a tendency to run from my problems and weed is a powerful tool for that
@conscientiousNick
I agree. I used cannabis to help cater to my avoidant behavior. The problem with avoidant behaviors and "shadow self care" (what they called in in my DBT program, but is self care that are avoidant E.G. watching T.V., pleasure eating, other things that leaves you feeling like you haven't accomplished anything at the end of the day) is that no matter how much you do it, the work will always be there when you come back. Sometimes it gets worse over time, so it's important to keep yourself in check and make sure you're not excessive about it. Well, that's what I'm working on right now at least. It has been a long battered path, and I'm stil lnot sure if I'm going in the right direction.
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i thought htis was a forum about something else....ha we should make one though