Devils powder
I started smoke fags at 13, visited GP at 14 and was prescribed antidepressants. Week later I smoke my first zoot and used that to deal with my mental health. I then continued to experiment with drugs, MDMA, Acid, Pills.. I then at 16 was popping pills everyday just to feel some sort of excitement or happiness for a period of time. I selfharmed and was bullied all throughout school. I am now 21 next week and moved on to coke.. which I didn’t think would be a problem at first.. until I started using more.. more frequently.. then doing it alone in my bedroom and always drinking. I now do it everyday and am unemployed and do some stupid things to get my fix.. I can’t function anymore :( I’m falling out with a long term partner who can’t deal with my addiction and drug behaviour anymore. I am always arguing with my family. Sleep throughout the day and go back out in the night time. I have no control over it anymore. I will be out for days constantly sniffing and drinking smoking like 100 fags. I just wanna feel better again :( :(
Hey discreet hickory my main struggle is alcohol but I can relate to the pills. I was prescribed benzos on and off from 16-22. If your drinking everyday id suggest finding somewhere to detox because it can be pretty rough especially with the combination. Not sure what country your from but id try to get waitlisted for a detox . I'm here if you wana chat
I’m always mixing the coke and drink together these days, been really bad the past couple months due to a loss of close relative. Trying to get in contact with some rehab centres but very expensive.. I’m from the Uk. How’s the drinking for you? Under control? Drop a message if you wanna talk.