Drugs

I'm not sure what you're going through precisely. I think the best thing would to be continue to reach out especially within your community and to family and friends. The fact that you want help is already a great start

If you're like me something will eventually stop you, whether it be the police or an ambulance or some other unfortunate incident in a Neverending chase to be high. I can't stand that I put myself in these life changing situations where I have to reflect so hard on things I've done that I barely or don't even remember doing. It's terrifying, but its hard to stay on the right path without purpose or goals in life. Do your best to set little goals each day for yourself to start. You are stronger than this and you deserve a life.