I think im an addict

Hi everyone, I feel like trash right now. Im way too young to be doing this shit. In 2019 i started smoking hash pretty often. Often became an habit, and in easterbreak i smoked atleast 1 joint everyday. One time when i was depressed as fuck i took a benzo (was ok, but didnt like it). However here comes the sad news: yesterday i did mdma :( and i think this is becoming a problem (i shouldnt be doing this shit at age of 15). Just after I took the mdma (before the drug kicked in) i my old buddie. And i started to think about what person i was back then. Its all so fucked up, im fucked up. Why do I have to ruin everything, now im starting to ruin my life :(