What
I dont feel better. I thought getting high would help but it didnt. It didnt even stop the cravings.
so now im back to square one and I dont know what to do.
but I know its my fault. I be thinking i got things under control and I can handle or one more time doesnt hurt. Its like i convince myself into doing this shit. It doesnt make me feel better and I wanna quite.
what do I do?
i can always stop anytime I want but I cant stay sober.
@blueNickel890
This is a common thing. Its referred to the cycle of addiction, in this cycle it looks something like this.
1. Emotion/thought/frustration
2. Fantasizing about using
3. Obsession about using begins
4. Using substance
5. Loss of control with use
6. Guilt and shame
7. Stopping use
8. Passing of time
9. Repeats.
This cycle looks different for everyone in some aspects and can range in length of time. It is possible to stop the cycle at the thought stage if you can recognize the thoughts as they begin to happen. Please continue to reach out for support <3
@Reskew I would recommend to get as much info on that topic as you can because you will definitely need it. Check out this resource for addiction helpline https://addictionresource.com/drug-rehab/free-rehabs/ I got a qualified help there and should say it is never too late to ask for help especially of we talk about health issues