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I actually hate people so much my mum want the best for me as all parents do but I feel like she's being to controling she gave me a bedtime of 9:00 I'm 15 btw and wants all my device by 7pm and my friends they saw that I make situation awkward which I do something like when someone talks to me they think I talk quietly because they're around and I don't want them to hear but it's true I know they'll talk about every single thing I do,they not getting the hint sometimes I act strangely because Im not in the mood to talk to people as I know they'll talk about every single thing I say or do,that if they're just going talk about me of course I'll be more open and talkative when they not around me.and some things are just bad habits like I smile weirdly and stare at people when I don't know what to do after I did something akward or embarrassing.they think I just acting werid around then but that's just how I am and sometime I am awakward around then .some people are just so stupid not getting sometimes I don't like to socialize or talked about my life.there is no thing wrong with me just wanting to go through life and just make my own choices and descion if I act differently then what's the issue can't I just choose to change.then they complain I hate them I don't hate I just want my own spacw sometimes for a few months.if I feel like I'm getting judged or constantly watched all the time of course I won't want to be around people then they start saying I only talk to everyone but they which isn't true if someone wants to talked to with and in okay with it I'll talk to them buts that a problem as now I'm being kind to everyone but them if they want to actually talk to me and I ignore them it doesn't always mean I'm doing it on purpose as I know that sometimes they actually don't care about me and are just pretending to care for fun so obusliy I f iknow that they might be parenting to be nice I won't answer them.but they'll know that I don't talk to them because of this and yet theyll use this as an excuse as to why I'm such a bad person but I know your just parenting to care I won't be stupid and actually talk to you.ans then they wonder why I'm distanting myself form them even though they know that I can't they not really caring about me sp i have a one boy which actually geuinely what's to be friends with me.and I stick with him most of time but the friend group I'm talking about is parenting they actually care about and are still talking about me.i actually want to be proper friends with them but is it worth or should I just say with my friend boy?