Something from my past I’m worried about I hope it gets understood

I put this in a *** vent channel they haven’t responded just yet but I wanted to put this here and talk about it and own up to it. My memory is foggy so I tried to piece  it together the best I could. 

I have something else that’s bothering me and it kinda came last night a rush of anxiety and worry about a situation being misunderstood or being seen as a creep or weirdo and I was going to try and let it go and leave to the universe but I wanted to try. I really need some understanding here. So when I was either 17 or just 18 I hade met a friend on imvu. I became friends with them because they seemed lost and worried my instinct kicked in and befriended then they were transgender they shared that there and where young as well I don’t remember well 15,16, or 17 one of these. So they were my first lgbt related friend and we talked and then became friends on *** all my intentions were friendly and they talked about their journey and I talked about discovering mine. I tried my best to not say anything inappropriate but I did share my orientation or my type my memory is mixed up I’m trying to fill in gaps but I did share a photo of a buff guy nothing lewd just a guy he might’ve had his shirt off though it was a friendly like hey this is my crush kind of convo. I might be getting them mixed with someone else. That might’ve been inappropriate is what I’m concerned about I didn’t intend it to be. I may have sent heart emojis one time as a friendly gesture then deleted because I wasn’t sure that was appropriate or not I wasn’t sure. And another incident we made a group with someone else they were 18. And my first friend I mentioned had sent a selfie and it was in a suggestive pose on accident. They didn’t mean for it to be and I was uncomfortable and was like woah in a way. And said I could see how someone could take advantage of this. Don’t remember what else I said after that but I was just speaking my mind. Looking back I believe I was looking out for them like hey you shouldn’t send these but that’s my way of communicating that.

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After that it was normal stuff but overall at some point my ocd just hit and I panicked wondering if the friendship was appropriate and ok. And was scared it would be misunderstood or I was a creep or bad or I was just panicking thinking all kinds of things. Worried I’d be accused of something especially being black I made up all kinds of worried and I just left that *** out of safety and panicked and fear. I told a friend why and they reassured me. And I’ve told other people portions of this they were understanding but now it’s back and I don’t feel comfortable moving forward without telling some more people publicly. So am I okay? Or is this it for me? Letting it go felt like I was hiding something but I promise I didn’t do anything my intentions were friendly. And I’ve tried to fill in the gaps the best I could. This is messy I know but my life has just been messy. If I’m in the wrong I understand. Thanks anyways.