Relationship issues Or Post Trauma

I have been through mentally abusive times. I came out the abusive environment to nurturing one. But the trauma endured still came along with inside my mind. The countless sleepless nights are follwed still after 2 years. Waking after the terror images of past in my dreams. Daytime also my disappointment upon people who could have saved me but didn't take stand surrounds my mind. 

I am a woman and it is my issue that I am a female where Girls are taught to endure all the misbehaviour happening in the in laws place in the name of adjustment.

Whoever I asked and discussed about my misery asked me to adjust. As every girl has to adjust in her husband's house.

Bearing it was too much for me.. Even after coming out of my in laws house, the mental abuse that happened haunts me. 

I am far away from them, there is no contact with them. But I am still married. I don't have courage to file for divorce as my parents are not supportive enough to take me in..

It is a doomed situation for me.. I am prisoner of my own mind. 

The strength I seek within myself has not been found yet.