I lost both parents,lost only child,not educated,no job and single at 37, crying everyday, it's been worse the last two days , crying for my child.im I unlucky or cursed?

Curse or not, it does not matter. Think positive, you will be what your thoughts are. It may all just be a test.

I am so sorry you are being thrown these curveballs. I don't think you are cursed at all. Life takes us on many journeys and I firmly believe the tough journeys are opportunities to learn from them and improve on ourselves. As someone who has been in a very similar situation, it was really easy for me to go down a self-destructive path. But once I took a step back, assessed my situation, I saw it as an opportunity to wipe the slate completely clean and start all over again in life. I wish you the absolute best on your journey.