If only my therapist sees my childhood as traumatic and emotionally neglectful, did it really happen or did I just make all that pain up?

That pain is real. As a child, you absorb. It’s never a one step process, but you can overcome the trauma. Please believe their is help. Because their is. Life has a funny way of not going as expected. You should expect that life changes every conceivable moment you can think of. But please understand there are people who care. People who understand your personality and mind set. We care, we hope, we try, we love, we do, we hurt, we are as you are. Our simple want and wish is for everyone too understand as we do and let live as life lets us grow. Hope for humanity.