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AislinnHimie5714
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I don't understand anything anymore.
Newbie Hub / by AislinnHimie5714
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 July 17th, 2025
...See more I don't know if I'm in the wrong here or not.. My boyfriend and I are from two different religions, in my religion, in their rules we shouldn't be with who aren't in our religion as well yet I disobeyed, I fell in love with my bf and here we are, we just had our 1st anniversary in May. Now, I did a lot of mistakes, I know I shouldn't have done things like send pictures of me to him, enabled and encourage his sexual implication but the thing is, i stopped sending pictures, I stopped encouraging it and actually deleted those I sent. When I asked if I could delete it, he asked for copies, I told him many times that no, I don't to keep any copies of it at all which later made him ask if I trust him, I do, I do I just don't want pictures of me to be out there. That's my first issue with him, second is as I stated, we are from two different religions, I don't want to leave my religion anymore, I finally understood it and it deeply resonates with me now besides if I do leave, I'll lose my family which I also can't risk, whenever I brought that issue up, like what is his plan he'd deflect it by telling me that those kinds of talk are for the future, I want certainty, I want some clarity and I want answers to know if there is a future for us or not but he'd always brush them aside. It frustrates me, I don't like feeling uncertain, I don't like leaving it up to fate or waiting for that future when it is already looking bleak to me. Third, whenever I'd tell a story, tell how my day went or things that happened, he'd always follow it up with something negative, one time I told him I got recognize by my parents' friend as much more hardworking than my parents in a joking way then he followed it up by saying that I should expect more work to be passed on to me. It frustrates me because he turns the vibe into something negative And lastly, he'd always ask me if I'm hiding something from him (I am not hiding anything from him, I already gave him my account passwords.) he doesn't like it when I'm interacting with men even if I need to, it irks me cause it's clear he don't trust me. I just don't understand anymore and I don't know what to do, is my relationship doomed?
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I am confused..
Newbie Hub / by AislinnHimie5714
Last post
 May 6th, 2025
...See more Hi, I don't know what to feel. First and foremost, I don't have friends... All of my previous friend group all ended due to backstabbing and betrayal. The thing is, I have some classmates whom I am still friends with but sadly drifted away, they have reached out and asked if I wanted to go to our reunion this month, I declined in respect for my boyfriend and his feelings, my classmates had no issues with it, only wishing that I could've come but respected it anyway... Now the issue is I wished to remain in contact with my classmates, especially the female ones since I was much more closer with them than the boys, and also due to me respecting my boyfriends boundaries. When i mentioned it to my bf, he wanted me to leave, he felt uneasy and he doesn't like it if I have any contact with males, he doesn't have any issue if the group chat only has girls. I would've left immediately but the thing is through that group chat, that is my only chance or way of communicating with the girls. I feel hurt and sad since it also feels like he doesn't trust me that much, I also kind of feel isolated.... Now when I told him that I wanted to have friends and have a social life (since I feel alone and that, I only have my family and him to talk to...) he felt like he wasn't enough for me.... He is enough, I just wish that I can rekindle the bonds I had with some of the girls since they truly mattered to me as well.
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