I don't understand anything anymore.
I don't know if I'm in the wrong here or not..
My boyfriend and I are from two different religions, in my religion, in their rules we shouldn't be with who aren't in our religion as well yet I disobeyed, I fell in love with my bf and here we are, we just had our 1st anniversary in May.
Now, I did a lot of mistakes, I know I shouldn't have done things like send pictures of me to him, enabled and encourage his sexual implication but the thing is, i stopped sending pictures, I stopped encouraging it and actually deleted those I sent. When I asked if I could delete it, he asked for copies, I told him many times that no, I don't to keep any copies of it at all which later made him ask if I trust him, I do, I do I just don't want pictures of me to be out there.
That's my first issue with him, second is as I stated, we are from two different religions, I don't want to leave my religion anymore, I finally understood it and it deeply resonates with me now besides if I do leave, I'll lose my family which I also can't risk, whenever I brought that issue up, like what is his plan he'd deflect it by telling me that those kinds of talk are for the future, I want certainty, I want some clarity and I want answers to know if there is a future for us or not but he'd always brush them aside.
It frustrates me, I don't like feeling uncertain, I don't like leaving it up to fate or waiting for that future when it is already looking bleak to me.
Third, whenever I'd tell a story, tell how my day went or things that happened, he'd always follow it up with something negative, one time I told him I got recognize by my parents' friend as much more hardworking than my parents in a joking way then he followed it up by saying that I should expect more work to be passed on to me. It frustrates me because he turns the vibe into something negative
And lastly, he'd always ask me if I'm hiding something from him (I am not hiding anything from him, I already gave him my account passwords.) he doesn't like it when I'm interacting with men even if I need to, it irks me cause it's clear he don't trust me.
I just don't understand anymore and I don't know what to do, is my relationship doomed?
@AislinnHimie5714
I'm sorry to hear that you've been struggling lately
If i can be very honest, i think that you both have made mistakes, but mostly him. I come from a religious country and i can understand that you don't want to leave your own religion because your family does not approve of that, and the thing is; if you don't feel comfortable leaving your own religion, then you shouldn't. And if your religion says that you shouldn't date another person with a different religion, then you shouldn't. But...we all make mistakes, because we are human...and that's okay, as long as we try our best to repent and be a better person, and i can tell that you're trying your best to be a better person already
Secondly, i would like to say something very important, that is "Love is respect" , and honestly , what he did was neither love nor respect. A respectful man would never force you to do something that you don't want, like sending pictures of yourself. He would also respect your boundaries and privacy because trust is very important in any kind of relationships. There has to be trust for a relationship to thrive
Honestly i'm not sure if this helps or not, but i hope it does. Sending you lots of support 💙
