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AnyaEmpathyMonster
3,157 M Seeking Light
PathStep 11 Compassion hearts153 Forum posts65 Forum upvotes154 Current upvotes154 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2018 Member sinceMarch 16, 2018
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Sexual Assault Survivor, PTSD from religion, car crash, assault, and domestic violence. I have too much empathy/sympathy !
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"They have stolen the heart from inside you, but this does not define you. This is not who you are, you know who you are." ~Moana

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Sexual Assault Awareness Month and Trump- angry diary post! Could use some encouragement!
Trauma Support / by AnyaEmpathyMonster
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March 31st, 2018
...See more April is Sexual Assault Awareness Month. It has been for a long time! It was first nationally recognized in 2001. I was going to post something asking for support because April is a very difficult month for me because of all the advocacy I want to participate in but is emotionally draining and triggering. I second guessed myself and looked it up to be sure it was truly in April. And guess what I saw. -------- Trump received allegations of assault and has "Declared" April sexual assault awareness month. I AM FURIOUS!! Everyone is all "Yay Trump is doing something good!" But they just ignore the fact that he declared something that was already there? Screw him! Screw his tactics to look good by claiming he put something into place that was already there! He just uses his authority to say this instead of doing anything more helpful for the cause! He could donate or designate money for research and prevention! He could be a humble human (as if Trump ever would) and admit the times in his life when he had abused his power and privilege. Pretty much every man has. I can't name one man in my life who hasn't used his privilege at least once in front of me (even the good men). I'm so angry that it is now 'Trumps' sexual assault awareness month. That would be like 'The KKK's Black History Month" preposterous.
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He Admited it, & Got Away *Sexual Assaults*
Trauma Support / by AnyaEmpathyMonster
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April 1st, 2018
...See more *Sexual assault, mild trigger warning* - - - Part 1 - - BACKGROUND: I was in an abusive relationship from the age of 17 to the age of 19. It was sexually and verbally abusive as well as very controlling. I was religious at the start of our relationship. Then, he raped me. Then he would rape me as punishment for going to church or talking to male friends. He made me feel like I was used trash that nobody would want to be with after him. At one point, he had even manipulated my mind to believe that it was me who raped him! Abuse can do some wild, tricky things. I was able to leave before I lost all contact with the outside. Several years later I started to see one of my coworkers. There was one night where I had consented to be intimate with him, at first. But then I asked him to stop because he was hurting me. His response was "Not yet." I then told him to stop more forcefully to which he responded "Just a little longer." This is a different kind of sexual assault. I questioned myself over and over if I should be upset about it or not. I decided to break it off with him. Then, he stalked me and begged me to come back to him. I knew from his behavior that what he had done was wrong. I changed after that. I decided that I wanted to take back my body and to do that I chose to sleep around. I must say, the folks I slept with during this time all respected my boundaries. The problem was when one man wouldn't let me go.
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