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BBMusicLover
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Madness
Anxiety Support / by BBMusicLover
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 July 31st, 2022
...See more I have suffered with all kinds of anxiety most of my life as a result of a very insidiously abusive childhood. Social anxiety has been a battle but honestly the worst is compulsive thinking. I get stuck on thoughts the worst of which have been a kind of a philosophical dilemma for me regarding an area of life. I know it really ties in with the nature of the abuse I experienced within my family. It wasn't sexual but very strange, hateful maltreatment largely orchestrated by my mother. She and my oldest brother were sadistic towards me. I've recently come to see this obsession as a kind of madness that has consumed and ruined my life. It's like really having been driven crazy when you spend hours, days, months and literally years thinking deeply about things and stuck in a rut. Reading some of Albert Ellis' writings have helped somewhat though as well as just my own thought progressions as time moves on.
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Complex
General Support / by BBMusicLover
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 May 1st, 2025
...See more Is anyone else out here very complex as a result of childhood abuse?
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General Support / by BBMusicLover
Last post
 July 10th, 2022
...See more I had a very insidiously abusive childhood and youth (mostly emotional) in which my mother had everyone in the house treating me very badly in different ways. I grew up with major gaslighting and constant put-downs that had nothing to do with the reality of who I was. My mother lived vicariously through the men in her life and would not allow me to feel like I exist. She had a ridiculously sick amount of respect for male supremacy. My oldest brother was sadistic towards me in conjunction with her and the middle brother was oblivious, ignorant and self-absorbed but touted as a genius. I went through many changes as a result. I was very depressed for years. A wasted life; I'm just trying to make the best of what's left. Would like someone who understands to reach out to me. Thanks.
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