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What can I do to eat healthy?
Eating Disorder Support / by BNE
Last post
 May 2nd, 2019
...See more Hello, I wasn't here for a long time. But today I want to change something. And I wasn't sure I this area here is the right place for my thread. Well, I am 43, female and I have a lot of different problems. I have a lot of times when eating and depression are causing problems. I am single, started a new job last month and actually I am very unmotivated. In these 4 weeks of working I reported sick on 3 days. That is pretty much and from now I have to be careful I don't want lost my job. I think when it comes to depression I eat a lot. Actually my weight is normal but my blood values are a bit critical. So I have to be careful if I don't want to get in trouble with my healthy. My Plan: I want to do more sports and eat healthier. And of course It would be a nice side effect if I could loose a bit of weight. I tried this every time again since last year but after a few day I felt back in old patterns and quit sports and healthy eating. But then there are other problems that prevent me from staying on track: I have fragments of boderline in my personality This diagnosis I get this year from my therapist. She is on maternity leave now. So I am on myself and need a little help. What can I do to stay with my plans to live healthier and do more sports? Actually I need more social contacts. I need to make new friends. But how? That is not easy for me because of my borderline fragments in my personality. It is difficult for me to stay in contact/friendship. Thank you for reading. And I am looking forward to hearing from you... Regards, Bne
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Night-Eating
Eating Disorder Support / by BNE
Last post
 May 30th, 2016
...See more Hello, I am 40 years old and I am suffering from eating disorders (sometimes more or less) since I am a teenager. Now I am in a "more" period and that's mean gaining weight because of binge eating. I also have periods of eating less and losing weight. Of course then I am happy. Today I was binging several times. Last time just a couple of minutes ago. Why? I felt so save a few minutes before binging. But then I was thinking of the fridge and the food inside. Then I saw my arms, they felt growing the last hours. I felt my belly and I felt not good. I thougth if I would'nt eat the food, I will eat it tomorrow or the next days. This evening I was planing for tomorrow. I thougth I will go to swim or do some yoga. Eating clean and start to losing weight again like in the past. I would like to feel light and free again. But it isn't working. And now I feel my stomach. It hurts. And I won't sleep tonight because of my full belly. And Tomorrow I won't go to swim or doing my yoga praxis. I am sad about it. How can I handle this situation. Why did I do this today? I have an Idea. Yesterday I had a date. I met this guy in the internet. He was friendly and we talk good. He liked me and hes said, that I am beautiful. He wanted to touch. I told him sometimes not touching me because I don't like it now and I would like to knowing him better. Oh, I have to tell you, in the first minutes of meeting this man I was recognizing his smell. And I didn't liked form the beginning on. He smelled of cloth that weren't wash for several days and sweat whitout wearing a cologne or somthing similar. I couldn't tell him the truth. I wanted to be polite. We separated this time without a kiss. Puh! After coming home I felt how difficult this situation was. Today my body felt tired and heavy. And after binging this emotions were growing. Now I am thinking of tell him the truth. I will do it. Of course he will not change because it is a part of him. And to try to change someone isn't working. It never works. And I don't want to hurt him. But then other thoughts are poping up? Who will he react? Will he still seeing me? What of course I would like, but without having intimity with him. But would he accept this? I think no. My experience is it never worked out in the past in similar situation. And all this thoughts make me so resignating. And now I have to told you why. I have problems to having relationships or to giving boarders to the other person. Something I haven't learn. Maybe that is causing my binging today. But binging is causing other problems to me. Help. What can I do to stop this? Hopeing to hearing from you. Regards, BN
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