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Brokenmindedgirl
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PathStep 12 Compassion hearts27 Forum posts21 Forum upvotes8 Current upvotes8 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2016 Member sinceJune 3, 2014
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Lack of life
Depression Support / by Brokenmindedgirl
Last post
 August 16th, 2014
...See more Let me start off by saying that I am writing this after a nights sleep so there is a little less emotion then before . So my story in a nutshell .... I lived with my biological parents till I was 10 . Then found out that they were both addicted to crack and I moved to another state to live with my aunt . My aunt thought that I was to chubby and ran her house like a boot camp . I thought that was pure torture  at the time . Then my parents moved back after rehab and I lived with them for another year in a motel while I finished middle school .Meanwhile my aunt fell sick . My parents started using again and I moved in with a random family from a church . Well this family adopted me , and I love them dearly they are amazing . However my problems were already etched deep in the surface of my soul . Throughout high school I had  major dependency problems . My life was always about ONE friend or ONE guy and that always left me hurt when they let me down . I never felt like I came first on anyone else's list . I was always the chubby kid and therefor never had a boyfriend .. Not even a one ... And that made my self worth plummet . I went off to college , trying to find a boyfriend to no avail . Slept with a few guys but they never spoke to me the next day . Feeling more and more worthless and degraded as the weeks went on . I left school , got a job and meant a guy online . Not my type at all but I was into him because he was into me . Dated for a year and got engaged and married . Now I am in a loveless marriage and more lonely then I was before . I have pushed all of my friends away with my abandonment and dependency issues . Same things go with the listeners  here . I just feel so alone and helpless :( 
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I dislike people
Depression Support / by Brokenmindedgirl
Last post
 August 17th, 2014
...See more I do not think that I will ever be able to comprehend how mean and cruel this world is . I just do not understand . I feel like I was born without this "protective coating " that everyone else seems to have . This .. Loneliness .. This pain .. Is just unbearable . :( 
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Stupid
Depression Support / by Brokenmindedgirl
Last post
 August 17th, 2014
...See more Stupid stupid stupid :(  ugh
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Alone
Depression Support / by Brokenmindedgirl
Last post
 August 13th, 2014
...See more I feel so completely alone in the big,mean world . Today seems extra hard in particular :( 
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Alone
Depression Support / by Brokenmindedgirl
Last post
 August 13th, 2014
...See more I feel so completely alone in the big,mean world . Today seems extra hard in particular :( 
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I am so sick of it
General Support / by Brokenmindedgirl
Last post
 August 8th, 2014
...See more I am so sick an tired of being the person I am . I would give anything to be anyone else . I just don't get it :/ I'm so sick of being unwanted . This fucking sucks . 
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