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BubbaA2
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PathStep 8 Compassion hearts16 Forum posts7 Forum upvotes10 Current upvotes10 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2022 Member sinceMarch 25, 2021
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Depression Support / by BubbaA2
Last post
 May 5th, 2021
...See more Hello everyone I have always felt a little bit different than everyone. I have always felt a level of sadness even when everything is okay. When everything isn’t okay I feel worse. I was in elementary school when I first cut myself. I was in 4th grade and almost slit my wrist with a razor from a sharpener. No one saw or knew this and my family still doesn’t really know this. I’ve grown up with many thoughts of suicide and some times where I thought I might actually do it. Throughout all of high school I was a pretty “popular” person i guess you could say. I conversated with a lot of people and I was into sports but no one knew how I was really feeling. I am someone that’s great at hiding their emotions and even better at pushing bad thoughts away but they always come back. In high school I was very sad deep down and my life wasn’t easy I grew up through many hardships and family deaths etc. I always have thought everyone I know would excel without my presence. I still think that a lot till this day. It wasn’t until college that I had enough told my mom I think depression hoping she would help me get treatment. She slapped me in the face and said how can I be so weak-minded? I was in shock I still kind of don’t know how to feel about it and this happened two years ago. There have been times where it feels like. life is okay but then it just goes back to being terrible all the time. I don’t know how to keep going. It’s just been so tiring.
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Depression Support / by BubbaA2
Last post
 April 24th, 2021
...See more Hello everyone I am pretty new to 7 cups and this is one of my first times making a thread. I recently have had my father pass away and it’s been so hard to find motivation to continue work and school. This was my biological father who was in and out of jail my whole life and I kind of barely even knew him. His death was something that really hurt me which I didn’t think it would. I attended the funeral and had so many people tell me I looked like him or I saw a slideshow of him at the services and he looked like he was so happy and everyone who knew him said he was a great person deep down. I have grown up with people who have went to jail but know they are great people so this wasn’t hard to believe to me. It was just hard because I never gave him the time of day and now it will never be possible for me to know my real father. I feel so guilty because he has tried to reach out to me before and I was scared of him leaving to jail and hurting me like before. I don’t know anymore everyone says it’s not my fault but it’s also not his. This last time he came out of jail he had been out for a while and I still didn’t give him the chance. I will always think about what would’ve happened if I did. Would he still be here? How would the relationship have turned out? I don’t know and I am sad I won’t ever be able to know.
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