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ChainedWings
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PathStep 25 Compassion hearts35 Forum posts7 Forum upvotes4 Current upvotes4 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2017 Member sinceDecember 29, 2013
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What's wrong with me?
Safety & Knowledge at 7 Cups / by ChainedWings
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 October 5th, 2015
...See more I must be the master of hypocrisy. Every day I talk to people who are struggling with all sorts of things, whether on this site or elsewhere. I've helped my friends out of suicidal moments and out of dangerous situations, and i do my best to make sure everyone i help knows that i care for them. I make sure they feel loved and do my best to help them feel happier. So why can't i do that for myself? While I'm helping others get better, I find myself progressively getting worse. Slipping back into old habits, succumbing to old addictions and desires. My suicidal thoughts have returned, but at the same time im too scared of dying, so i"m always a little ball of anxiety, because in addition to my life being stressful, death is also very, very stressful to me, and i end up having a panic attack almost every single day. I'm throwing myself into dangerous situations just because of a chance that I'll find temporary relief. I cant do anything to make myself feel better or happier or loved. Everything I've done to help others isn't working for me.Nothing is. I need help from others.... Do you guys have any suggestions?
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Should I stop wasting people's time?
General Support / by ChainedWings
Last post
 October 5th, 2015
...See more I'm hopeless. I was bad when i joined this site a year or so ago and i've only gotten worse. I'm never going to get better so why should i keep wasting their time and energy and care?
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