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Daybreak444
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Struggling. But getting better

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Struggling with under eating
Eating Disorder Support / by Daybreak444
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 April 8th, 2025
...See more Im supposed to be holding it together until I get to a place where I can comfortably go to treatment, and I'm not doing a great job of that. I feel like I'm falling apart at the seams. I don't know how to fight that loud voice in my head that says "just stop eating you fat ***" even though I logically know my body looks different than I perceive it, I just can't shake it. I am addicted to the feeling of starving. It's hard to break something that's comforted you your whole life pretty much. Although I am struggling, my therapist and friends are great supports, I just need to learn to use them. I'm used to doing everything on my own so this is a big step for me. I hope I can keep it together until I can get the money for treatment together. As long as I'm honest and committed I'll be alright.
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Going back to Treatment
Eating Disorder Support / by Daybreak444
Last post
 April 8th, 2025
...See more Hi, this is my first post here on this community board. I'm really not looking for advice, I just need support. I've been struggling with a menagerie of ED behaviors since I was about 5. I think some if is due to my autism and my thing with textures. I went to treatment back in october-beginning of December of last year, but I wasn't able to maintain healthy eating by any means, mostly because my best friend died then 13 days later my 1.5 year old cat was diagnosed with cardiac failure. I know I need to go back, especially because it's interfering with my ability to function. And I'm having emotional responses to my symptoms that are inhibiting me from doing things I enjoy or just need to do. When I was in treatment I was having a much better time with my attention and mood after I got out of residential. I'm just dreading a trip to residential. Anyways anything anyone has to offer is appreciated.
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