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Eli414
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Depression Support / by Eli414
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 September 11th, 2025
...See more I have two really good friends who have helped me without even knowing it. We have shared so many memories together and I couldn’t thank them enough. However I find my self distancing myself from them and others I care for. I feel like I’m not appreciated, like my company isn’t welcome, or like I’m just not good enough for them. When we’re playing games online sometimes I just go silent and hear them enjoy themselves. I act like I’m enjoying myself when I’m really not. I don’t even talk to others, and I’m scared to text others to do things because I feel like I’m a burden or like I’m putting them in a tough spot just by asking. I only act like this with people I’m close with. I couldn’t care less about people that I’m not as close with. I can talk to them and whatever but they’re just not my people. I live with dark thoughts and I often put myself down. My day consists of school and sleep. I’m not interesting. I have no self love, I am not enjoyable to be around. I feel like people can rely on me when they’re down but I have nobody to rely on. I need help I just don’t know what I need. If I continue with these thoughts I can see my friendships coming to an end and I don’t see anything going well for me.
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Depression Support / by Eli414
Last post
 September 11th, 2025
...See more I am blessed to have the friends I have. All though my group is small, we’re all each other needs I guess. We have shared so many memories together, and I truly appreciate them. I find myself distancing myself from them though and other people I care about. I feel as if I’m not appreciated or if I’m not interesting enough. I feel like without me nothing would change. Occasionally when I’m let’s say playing online with them I just go silent deep in my thoughts. I hear them enjoying themselves and I’m just there. There have been to many times where I’ve just ended off the night acting like I enjoyed myself but i really haven’t. I’m even afraid to ask people to do things as if like I’m a burden or that by asking I’m putting them in a tough spot. I live with dark thoughts and I even put myself down. My days consist of school and sleep. I even talk to people who I’m not as close with just cause it seems easier to talk to them because I could care less about how they perceive me. I don’t know how to get out of this hole of me isolating myself from the people I care about and not having the confidence to talk to them. I have no self love whatsoever and I could care less what happens to me. What should I do.
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