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Foxyracerbecca
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Do I give up on this?
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Foxyracerbecca
Last post
 June 30th, 2020
...See more Do I give up on someone because of this? I don't want too I love her. I just don't know if I should respect her wish and move on or if this is a cry for help?......... Im not going to call you. I cant talk to you. I shake when I talk to you. When I see your name. I instantly shake or cry. For am empath, Becca, I dont know how you havent picked up on it already. Especially because I did think you knew me well enough to understand why I do what I do. I cant be with you. I wont be with you. My family wont allow it. Support it. Care about us. Anything. And I cant do that. Id rather be half happy with my family involved than fully happy without them. Despite how they feel, my feelings for you were real. And it hurts me to talk to you. To think about you. To think about how much I hurt you. To know what we could have been but what I WILL NOT allow. I cant be your friend. I honestly dont want to be. I got over it as much as I could. I cried and cried and cried but then I let you go. And Im not going back. Its nothing you did. You are fine. I just cant be with you and I cant see you because it hurts me. I cant say your name anymore because it hurts me. And so I am trying to hurt you as much as possible so that youll hate me and walk away. I told you 1000 times its what I do when Im in pain. I think I called it katana-ing people because its just too much for me to deal with. I can feel everything you feel. I just assumed you understood. And were playing dumb and wanting me to say this to try and get me to come back. But Im not coming back. I let it go. I let us go. Because its whats best for me. And Im sorry for putting myself before you, but thats whats different. Im putting myself and my feelings above yours. Because I have to right now. Im sorry. I dont want to be in each others lives. I just want to move on and move forward and try to be happy. And I hope the same for you.
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Advise when she pushes you away
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Foxyracerbecca
Last post
 August 2nd, 2020
...See more I was seeing a girl for about 5 months, first person I've ever met that was an empath like myself. We hit it off. She has a lot of trauma and her parents would not be accepting of her being with a woman. She isn't out of the closet. She completely cut me off and said some hurtful things, I knew that what we shared wasn't a lie so I kept pushing for the truth of why. She admitted that her parents would never accept ya and she couldn't live with that. That she would rather be half happy with them involved then fully happy without them. She said she was trying to push me away and make me hate her so I'd walk away. She has done this before in her previous relationships. I know that she wants to be with me but she won't let me in. She said she's in pain and she is sorry for putting her feelings before mine but it's what she has to do right now. I don't want to give up on her but how can I be there for her if she won't even talk to me? How can someone not be with someone they love because of their parents? I don't understand fully because all of my family is accepting of me. I don't know what to do and I'd really like someone to talk about it too before I drive myself insane
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