Do I give up on this?
Do I give up on someone because of this? I don't want too I love her. I just don't know if I should respect her wish and move on or if this is a cry for help?.........
Im not going to call you. I cant talk to you. I shake when I talk to you. When I see your name. I instantly shake or cry. For am empath, Becca, I dont know how you havent picked up on it already. Especially because I did think you knew me well enough to understand why I do what I do. I cant be with you. I wont be with you. My family wont allow it. Support it. Care about us. Anything. And I cant do that. Id rather be half happy with my family involved than fully happy without them. Despite how they feel, my feelings for you were real. And it hurts me to talk to you. To think about you. To think about how much I hurt you. To know what we could have been but what I WILL NOT allow. I cant be your friend. I honestly dont want to be. I got over it as much as I could. I cried and cried and cried but then I let you go. And Im not going back. Its nothing you did. You are fine. I just cant be with you and I cant see you because it hurts me. I cant say your name anymore because it hurts me. And so I am trying to hurt you as much as possible so that youll hate me and walk away. I told you 1000 times its what I do when Im in pain. I think I called it katana-ing people because its just too much for me to deal with. I can feel everything you feel. I just assumed you understood. And were playing dumb and wanting me to say this to try and get me to come back. But Im not coming back. I let it go. I let us go. Because its whats best for me. And Im sorry for putting myself before you, but thats whats different. Im putting myself and my feelings above yours. Because I have to right now. Im sorry. I dont want to be in each others lives. I just want to move on and move forward and try to be happy. And I hope the same for you.
@Foxyracerbecca. Yes give up. Let the person know the door is open if they change thier.mind then let it go . Clearly the decision is made. They made thier choice. Done. I'm sorry it's that way bot let it go.
@selfconfidentMelon5824 this is like the worst heartbreak ever. I just could never fathom walking away from love especially if it has nothing to do with what we could have made it's because of shame to be with me
@Foxyracerbecca
I just realize this is a follow up on your last post. What you can do is screenshot the post on my story I sent to you, send it to her and let her know. Say that you don't want both of you to be in regret just like I am. Finally tell her that you will always be loving her, listen to her final decision and make your choice based on that. I wish the best for you and you're not alone in this. The world can be a cruel place but it's important that you get some closure and move on. Let me know the outcome okay :)
@Foxyracerbecca
@Foxyracerbecca I would tell your girlfriend and you also to do some reading in C-PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder, with her history of trauam, and this text she sent you, its classic case.
One thing we have to remeber, is that people with trauma express themselves very differently that thoes who havent. They do strange, manipulative, things which to another person seems toxic and BAD but it CAN be helped and corrected. Messge me privatley and lets chat about it