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IAmMeDealWithIt
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Autism Support / by IAmMeDealWithIt
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 March 26th, 2025
...See more Hello everyone, I'm Ellen and I'm from Belgium. I just joined this community (I've been on 7cups for over 10 years). I have been struggling with several mental health issues since my teens. It's only recently that I'm starting to find out (through ***, surveys, research, reading and teaching in an autism classroom) that I might actually be autistic.  I haven't got a formal diagnose yet but I started working with a psychologist to find out what is causing my daily struggles and recent mental health decline.  I've had 2 sessions so far, which I loved although I was so tense the whole time.  Today I worked up the courage to ask my psychologist via e-mail if it was okay for me to bring a comfort-item to try and releave some of my tension. It seems so mundain but to me, asking that question was such a big step and a big deal because I felt so embarassed to ask that as an adult. Anyway, I hope I can find people here who I can share my journey with! Have a nice day everyone!
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First time actually coping
Self-Harm Recovery / by IAmMeDealWithIt
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 July 21st, 2018
...See more Hey everyone, Since my relapse in May I haven't been able to cope with urges. I thought I could get back to recovery but nothing worked and I haven't been even as much as a day clean since May. But today everything changed. It's a very small step but it's something. I woke up with huge urges, I had a triggering dream (more like nightmare though) and the urges were strong. I got very close to selfharm but there was work waiting for me. I had to build an IKEA closet. I had never done that before and I wanted to prove I could do it on my own. It distracted me for a bit. During the building every time I held a screwdriver in my hand I felt the urges again but I pulled through. Now the closet is build, it's in place and I've never felt more proud of myself. The feeling of being proud is so strong that I don't have urges anymore. Will it last? I don't know. Will I wake up with urges again? Probably. But this step is so important in the road to recovery and it will be something to guide me along the way. I felt like sharing this and you guys are the only ones who would truly understand. ❤️❤️❤️ Big hugs from Ellen
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A Poem (Triggering maybe)
Self-Harm Recovery / by IAmMeDealWithIt
Last post
 June 14th, 2018
...See more I wrote this yesterday in a bathroom after I fled in there and was having really bad urges along with a huge panick attack. I was so close to giving in to them when suddenly I realised I had my phone to write on and this came out: Jacket off, mask down finnaly free no more lies I'm in my safe place no one can see what these demons are doing to me. I been blessed in this life I know All the things I want, I own. But have you ever put a smile on that wasn't even real? I can try to brush it of I know I heard all this advice before But have you ever hid your wrists so people woudn't see? Just take a chance to look at me and realise I'm not who I used to be.
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