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Jmors8484
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I dont know if i should leave.
Relationship Stress / by Jmors8484
Last post
 November 17th, 2025
...See more Hello, im 29 F. Boyfriend is 30M. Weve been together for almost 3 years. 9 months ago i had a my daughter. Shes my whole world. Boyfriend has had questionable behavior regarding alcohol and drugs... hes done things im not happy about.. last night was my final straw.. he was watching out in the livingroom so i can relax. I went out to give her a kiss and i stepped on a pill. A little pink pill and he tried to lie to me when i asked him what it was. He finally told me it was morphine. Wouldnt tell me where he got it from. It was right where my daughter was playing... i look around the foor and find another pill. Apparently it was half a xanax and it looked wet. So i lost it. I told him i was done, i cannot do this anymore. I went to the ER with my daughter. We were on observation for 6 hours. He was mad at me that i was yelling at him but thats not acceptable. ingesting pills is fatal for children. That is not forgivable to me. He has had other instances revoling alcohol that i cannot accept. We were supposed to be working on trust. Now i nor longer feel like i can trust him to care for my daughter alone.. theres other things that have been bottling as well.. general not helping with the house and expenses.. leaving the cars on empty all the time.. i just cant do it anymore... its causing too much stress.. but now im at the point where should i go for full custody? I dont want to keep them apart, i know they love each other.. but i cant leave her alone with him if hes going to be irresponsable... and how am i going to raise her alone? Right now my heart has sunken.. i feel so alone.. i dont want to start over again... this is not the man i thought he was and this has shattered me apart... i dont know what to do from here.. im 29... i want more children.. i just dont see that happening anymore for me.. it took so long to find someone again and then this happens.. i dont feel like love is in the cards for me.. and now my daughter wont have her dad there for her. I want to give him another chance but honestly, how can i? My daughters safety comes first... i just dont know what to do.. i have no one to talk to.. please help me somehow..
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Is there hope?
Anxiety Support / by Jmors8484
Last post
 September 25th, 2025
...See more Hello all, wondering if anyone has overcame panic disorder? Been dealing with it for almost 15 years.. and i have my good days, i can go long periods of having 1 attack once a month, sometimes being in an anxious state persists for a few days then stops. Only once in my life have i dealt with panic this bad.. the past two and a half weeks i have been incredibly anxious. Having about 3 attacks a day and unable to relax my body.. i began taking my SSRIs again, which have improved the attack intensity and freuency a little bit but i am still struggling.. im feeling defeated, drained and depressed through my days... i lost 9 pounds in these 2 and a half weeks.. i can hardly eat.. im not resting well (i have an 8m old) last week i had the worst attack of my life and went to the ER.. my heart rate was 156 and thats not abnormal for me when i have an attack but it scares the living crap out of me.. they did and ekg and blood work.. i was medically cleared so, that was nice to know my heart wont just stop beating bc of how fast it is. I am currently seeing a therapist and we have a treatment plan in mind. I also seen my pcp and they want me to see a psychiatrist. So i will do that too... im trying so hard to change the relationship i have with my anxiety.. my thoughts are eating me alive... i feel like i experience some depersonalization and cognative fusion.. my thoughts consume me.. i dont know how to let them go and i dont know how to be okay with my physical symptoms... it just feels like im going insane.. im ready to just give up but i cant because i see my baby girl everyday and i want to be there for her and be the best mom i can be. I feel guilty that im going through this... i want to be strong for her and for myself.. please tell me this will pass and theres hope for me.. i feel like its never going to get better and i will never be happy again..
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Is there hope?
Anxiety Support / by Jmors8484
Last post
 September 26th, 2025
...See more Hello all, wondering if anyone has overcame panic disorder? Been dealing with it for almost 15 years.. and i have my good days, i can go long periods of having 1 attack once a month, sometimes being in an anxious state persists for a few days then stops. Only once in my life have i dealt with panic this bad.. the past two and a half weeks i have been incredibly anxious. Having about 3 attacks a day and unable to relax my body.. i began taking my SSRIs again, which have improved the attack intensity and freuency a little bit but i am still struggling.. im feeling defeated, drained and depressed through my days... i lost 9 pounds in these 2 and a half weeks.. i can hardly eat.. im not resting well (i have an 8m old) last week i had the worst attack of my life and went to the ER.. my heart rate was 156 and thats not abnormal for me when i have an attack but it scares the living crap out of me.. they did and ekg and blood work.. i was medically cleared so, that was nice to know my heart wont just stop beating bc of how fast it is. I am currently seeing a therapist and we have a treatment plan in mind. I also seen my pcp and they want me to see a psychiatrist. So i will do that too... im trying so hard to change the relationship i have with my anxiety.. my thoughts are eating me alive... i feel like i experience some depersonalization and cognative fusion.. my thoughts consume me.. i dont know how to let them go and i dont know how to be okay with my physical symptoms... it just feels like im going insane.. im ready to just give up but i cant because i see my baby girl everyday and i want to be there for her and be the best mom i can be. I feel guilty that im going through this... i want to be strong for her and for myself.. please tell me this will pass and theres hope for me.. i feel like its never going to get better and i will never be happy again..
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Feeling afraid
Anxiety Support / by Jmors8484
Last post
 February 26th, 2022
...See more I feel, afraid of what seems like everything. I suffer from health anxiety and panic disorder. My panic attacks have been getting worse lately.. its tearing me apart... I feel like I cant do it anymore.. I always feel anxious.. I can't afford therapy.. I feel like this is never going to go away... panic attacks are never going to stop. The feelings that come with an anxiety attack scare me so bad... im just in an endless cycle of fear.. I discovered there's a family disorder that I may have so I know its been contributed to my attacks... I know its being weighing on me heavily... I feel so alone through it all... I feel like there's not a soul on this earth I can deeply connect with... no one on this earth I fully trust... I have to keep trying to be strong for myself and I cant..can't... I can't be strong anymore... this... this is truly breaking me..
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