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KieKieG
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Self-Esteem / by KieKieG
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 May 28th, 2025
...See more Hi, so I had my first therapy session yesterday and it was very emotional. I came out of it asking a lot more questions than when I went in which is a good thing as it means I'm getting to the root of my issues but there were a few things that really stood out and stopped me in my tracks. The first was when I was asked if I think I deserved love... That one got me very emotional because the answer was no. The second was if I loved myself which was an easier one. Still a no but it's because I haven't been who I want to/know I can be. The third was when we delved a little deeper into growing up and I was asked if I think my parents loved me. That one was complicated because over the years I've had moments where I felt love but I couldn't say 100% that I thought they loved me. It's a hard thing to think about and I'm still not sure what to do with that information but I feel as the sessions go on it will become clearer. Thanks for whoever reads this if anyone. I just wanted to share my experience.
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I've been toxic without realizing
Relationship Stress / by KieKieG
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 May 26th, 2025
...See more I 30M have been with my partner 23F for around 2 and a half years now, we have 2 children together and obviously it was very fast into the relationship. I have done things over the span of the relationship without realizing until now. I had constantly made her feel like she wasn't good enough, lied to her, kept secrets and tried to revert blame in arguments back onto her. It's not an excuse but I felt like she was too good for me which is the reason I'd put her down. I felt like if she could be herself she'd realize that I wasn't enough. I have started to make changes by journaling and self help books to help me get to the person I want to be but because I've let her down so many times I'm scared that she's become numb to me and our relationship and is only staying for the kids. Need advice on how I can convince her I want her, need her, love her and will never let myself get back to how I was before. FYI I also have a gambling addiction that I lied about and recently relapsed.
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