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Kirbyyyy
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PathStep 6 Compassion hearts332 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes10 Current upvotes10 Age GroupAdult Last activeJanuary, 2020 Member sinceMay 4, 2016
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Hi, I'm Kirby.
I'm a 34 year old closeted lesbian.
I'm here to try and catch some bravery, talk about life and hang with people that are similar to me.

I love tattoo's, animals and going for a few pints after work.

Uhmm...I don't know what else to say

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How do I stop being so...me
Relationship Stress / by Kirbyyyy
Last post
 July 14th, 2019
...See more So, I have a decent group of friends. Actually, they're more my husband's friends, we all got to know each other at the same time...but he's the genuinely happy, fun, kind and outgoing guy. Me, I'm the sarcastic, closed off and kinda mean person who just tells it like it is. I'm struggling with life atm, and I know it's manifested in my personality. I don't like being hugged although I crave contact with someone so much, I want someone to hold me and tell me I'll be ok. I hate it if people tell me they love me. They shouldn't, I'm bad people. I make sure I get a few snipey jokes in on other people's behalfs every time we hang. I just....it's like I created this person and everyone is just like "Oh, that's Kirby. She keeps it real and that's why we love her" These people, I would take a bullet for....but I can never let them know that. Last weekend I went to a BBQ and I spent the day just pushing everyone away. I was miserable and tired and lonely. I just sat alone and drank and shut down every conversation people tried to start with me. I don't know wtf is wrong with me. I'm already alone as it is...dealing with an issue that affects me every moment of every day, but I decide to ruin myself some more by keeping every person I know at arm's length. I wish I could change...but I know I can't.
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Lesbian in a straight relationship
LGBTQ+ / MOGII Support / by Kirbyyyy
Last post
 July 14th, 2019
...See more Hi...so, I was wondering if there's anyone else out there in a similar situation to me. I figured out far too late in my life that I was gay, I was married by the time I realised why I loathed myself so much, why I was so angry at myself and the world. One summer....I met a girl, we became friends so fast...I couldn't stop thinking about her. Then one day, she kissed me. She saved my life. I fell in love with her. For 6 months, we had an affair...it was wrong I know. I finally came out to my husband...it did not go well. Needless to say, 6 years later...I'm still married, still in the closet and I don't think I'll ever be able to come out. I haven't seen the girl who saved my life since I told her I couldn't be with her. So I'm here now, just trying to get through life I guess. Anyways...as much as i would love to know people similar to me, I'm hoping beyond hope that nobody is in this terrible situation. Nobody deserves this.
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