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LinYukari97
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PathStep 63 Compassion hearts44 Forum posts9 Forum upvotes19 Current upvotes19 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2025 Member sinceFebruary 14, 2018
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How do I accept myself completely and heal ?
Anxiety Support / by LinYukari97
Last post
 October 15th, 2025
...See more So I’m struggling with anxiety and depression these days mainly because of my academic pressure and living situation. But when I feel mentally unwell, my past trauma became alive again replayed in my head repeatedly and I have trouble accepting myself. For the context, a girl I knew personally attacked me out of nowhere and blamed me for no reason in the past(not too long since then). She used the “have some therapy” tactic as a weapon to use against me. (She means I am crazy). But I didn’t harm anyone nor I didn’t start the fight. She crossed the boundary first. And I mean having therapy is not a shame. People can physically become sick as well as mentally unwell. That can’t be a weapon to use against someone who has no control of their illness. So, when I feel depressed or have some anxiety, in my head, her words replayed and I kind of blame myself as if I have done something wrong. I know if I become like this, this is exactly what she wants, but how can I get out of this loop and heal myself that having anxiety or depression is not something to blame? And I don’t want to trouble people besides me because I am in depression and I am struggling with anxiety.
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Feeling suffocated and self harm thoughts
Depression Support / by LinYukari97
Last post
 March 19th, 2025
...See more So I’m currently in abroad and I live alone. I had past experience of having anxiety attacks and depression and insomnia. I took medication according to therapist in my country that time and was able to be recovered for a few years. But due to some circumstances in my life, my depression recurred since last year and I’m struggling again. It’s not easy to talk to psychiatrist here as I have language barrier and financial problems. Lately, I have been feeling suffocated, I don’t have suicidal thoughts (maybe a little) but I want to harm myself to stay sane because it’s too much for me to bear this feeling. I lost confidence in my life, my studies and I want to give up everything. I feel too overwhelmed to do anything. It’s not visible to people as I look energetic and hard working but deep inside, I’m dying. My boyfriend also can’t understand me. He thinks he can handle me and also tried to cheer me up but I know myself this is a serious depression so I feel I need to talk to a therapist and get medication in order to live my life happily again.
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Broke up yesterday. Still can’t get over the emotions I have been feeling
Relationship Stress / by LinYukari97
Last post
 September 17th, 2024
...See more It’s so hard to move on from one person. In the morning I was so depressed and down that I couldn’t do anything. I had to take anti depressant to keep me sane.
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PTSD from abusive mother
Trauma Support / by LinYukari97
Last post
 March 8th, 2023
...See more I am in abroad living alone for two years and my mentality is ok here, I enjoy my life. But now I have(I can’t not) to go back to that place that is haunting me from my childhood. I’m afraid to live that dark life again with people I don’t want to interact. She hurt me too much mentally. I literally hate her so much. She was abusive(she hit or kick us children since young, cursing the worst things you could ever imagine), also controlling(if she doesn’t have her way, she doesn’t stop cursing, she even threatened to kill me with knife) and have very low self esteem. She herself has mental disorder(she’s taking medication) and wants to make others go crazy. Once she opens her mouth, she say negative things. Even when we’re happy, she doesn’t want to see it and always tells bad things. I couldn’t sleep or I woke up just from small sounds when I was in my country. Now I live alone in abroad but whenever she calls me, she doesn’t ask about my well-being instead talks about negative things again and again, I hung up every time and my mood is always ruined. I’m really fed up. I hate her so much that I don’t ever want to talk to her again. I hope if I go back, I will not go crazy and I will be able to get out of that *** alive. When I knew I have to go back, my tears fell on its own. I can’t express the feeling that I hated that life of mine. I even start to think why I was born in that kind of family. I really envy children who grew up in nice family with nice mother. In my next life, I never want to have that kind of parents again. I have one elder sister but she’s not mentally supportive. She’s not a bad sister but she tends to blame me or says “why are you getting worked up with this little things” when I express my feelings so I rarely talk to her about my feelings. I had low self esteem and inferiority complex because of my childhood before. Now I’m finally living better but I need to get over this. After this, I hope I will be free again, living my life peacefully. (I don’t have depression or suicidal thoughts, I’m just afraid I will go crazy)
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Bright Future ahead!
General Support / by LinYukari97
Last post
 December 23rd, 2022
...See more Dreams will come true. Hard work will be paid. You deserve the best ❤️
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