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𐔌՞𝑻𝒓𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒇𝒂𝒔𝒕𝒆𝒓 𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒅𝒐𝒆𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒘𝒂𝒊𝒕!՞𐦯
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ᴍᴇᴏᴡ! ฅ^>⩊<^ ฅ

Hii! I'm Mimi!! I'm probably just your average, cringy and over eccentric preteen that doesn't even have a valid reason to be in this kind of website/place, But sometimes I just feel like crap, and I dont want to keep bothering my friends anymore.

I like cute things!! Pink, bunnies, all that stuff!! My music taste is kinda... Mixed, I listen to anything that can shut down my thoughts, But I do listen to metal very often!! (I am a kawaii metal and glam metal connesuir, or however you spell it.. trust me!! Ov<) I also like writing, and I cosplay!! 

I don't know, but I suffer from constant thoughts of SH and have attempted Su!c1de plenty of times before. Maybe it's cause of stress from school, or that looming feeling and dread of never feeling like you belong in something, or it's just that I'm overdramatic.. But I don't really have anyone to talk to about it, as my Parents don't help at all. They're more of a uhh.. they prefer logical solutions just to shut me up. The only reason I'm still here is cause of my dad who TRIES to understand, otherwise I just honestly feel like everyone would have a better time if I just wasn't around anymore. I just want support and someone to talk to where I constantly don't feel like everything is my fault, or someone to tell me how to actually make myself feel better or make me feel better, cause I've been stuck all my life doing that by myself.



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Updates! Going kinda.. good (I think)
Self-Harm Recovery / by M0CH1
Last post
 March 2nd
...See more TW: still same mentions of SH and mean parents.. sadly. Life has been.. ehhh.. 60/40, but I'm pushing through!! Good stuff has been happening (though less than I hoped)!! And it has really helped me recover alot! Though im still not reaching my past record (2 years) of being clean whatsoever, and I'll acknowledge that I have no hope of reaching it in the next following months. I attended my sister's ringhop (she's graduating soon, I'm proud of her!!), I won a gold medal in my Arnis tournament, and I got accepted in some of my auditions (in terms of acting and commercial gigs), so I'll be getting projects (and some money eyyy) soon! Though my family problems still remain, as my family has been getting stressed over funds and adult stuff, which has kept them on edge and prone to beeung angry A LOT. (Me and my sister are unfortunately the unlucky victims to be lashed out upon.), The words have been getting worse, and at one point my mother threw a knife at me telling me to off myself cause that's what I apparently wanted, and has been weaponizing things that have happened to me in the past. My grades have also been getting low, and one of my long time dogs has just passed (it was a bad night when that happened.) Buuuttt!! On the bright side, I am proud to say that I haven't been turning to blades anymore!! However I am still not yet clean as I only reach atleast a couple of weeks at most before the urges win again. I have been turning to ice and salt as it has helped me in the past to stray away from blades, and hopefully SH as a whole soon. It leaves less marks and is more dull than stinging, giving me time to distract myself. Overall I don't think I'll be reaching my past point anytime soon, it's difficult, but I'm gonna use these good moments to hopefully gaslight myself into not doing it for a little while, hehe.
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Ow ow ow, Im back at it again :((
Self-Harm Recovery / by M0CH1
Last post
 February 28th
...See more TWWW: uhh.. Average relapse and very mean parents. I broke my streak of 2 years last night after a pretty big fight with my mom and dad about a SCIENTIFIC CALCULATOR I lost at school. They called me names, threatened to stop my education YET AGAIN. And me, tired from martial arts practice and more overwhelmed than ever for the whole week and already contemplating relapsing due to prior fights with my mom, my emotions got to a high and I didn't know where to put it anymore. So here I am :((  They uhm.. they unfortunately caught me, and tbh I didn't know how they would react. I wish on everyone and even my enemies that their own parents won't react like they did though. They doubled down and my dad whooped me with a belt  while screaming about if everything they did wasn't enough instead, and my mom threatened to kill herself as well, then asked for a knife so that I could apparently "cut more". Which ouch, really. Then we ended up having a hard talk which tbh didn't even help. It was her putting words in my mouth and making me too nervous to actually explain my side and how I have always felt properly (it ended up being super vague as she always repeated phrases like "ohh, but let's go back to why I'm doing this in the first place! Me telling you to stop everything you do after a small problem is me motivating you!" Or "Well did I actually make you stop?? Yeah, exactly!! You shouldn't be hurt at all!" Well.. okay then, are you aware that words hurt though?? Sorry for not being hardened people like you guys yet, maybe I will be soon??) I ended up talking with my sister instead which is a WHOLE lot better, the kind of talk I've been wanting to have for MONTHS since we had a talk like that again. (Even then it was her taking my parents side as always, but atleast we managed to address my lack of any ability to feel anything positive about myself to a degree.) But still, it never helped, I ended up adding more and stared at the pill bottle under my pillow contemplating on if I should actually go on with it or not (which at this point I think I was being overdramatic.) I'm very guilty. But only because my dad ended up sobbing which isn't the first time I've seen him cry, but it kind of hurt me even more. He's the only reason that I'm mostly still here, but that night made me realize that I shouldn't trust him much either. I love my parents so much, but they suck so much in the mental and emotional department, like.. they don't understand how they're stupid "motivation" hurts me more and pushes me to actually do it out of SPITE?? They think whatever raised them will work on me, when really, it's just making me even more guilty and worse about my mere EXISTENCE.  Tbh I don't know who to talk to anymore, Listeners, sure, but my guilty conscience is tearing away at my brain again and I'm afraid and conscious to tell anyone. It's gonna long nights of distraction if I want to go back to my very strenuous progress of being clean for atleast a month again.
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Hi!! Hi Everyoneee!!
Newbie Hub / by M0CH1
Last post
 December 27th, 2025
...See more Helloo Hello Everynyan!! I was honestly very, very anxious to post this cause I have a chronic fear of people booing and throwing tomatoes at me as soon as I introduce myself./j, especially with how cringe and overall stupid my personality and online self is.. But here goes!! Hiii!! I'm Mimi!! I've said this time and time again but I'm honestly just your average eccentric, cringy preteen with equally cringy interests (to be cringe to is to be free.)!! I probably don't even have a valid reason to be here tbh lol. I think I'm WAYY too overdramatic about my problems sometimes. I like super duper cute stuff, pink, bows, fashion, and all that stuff, I devour any kind of Japanese sweet treats, I write, and I really, REAALLY like talking about music! I love taking music/band recommendations, and I litterally listen to almost anything! I listen to metal more often than not though.. (Do NOT ask me about any kind of band members tho.. No I do not know what kind of Dookie Ozzy Osbourne took at 1AM in the morning on November third 1946.) I also have this weird thing where I get obsessed over things and make it my theme for a week or two. By the time I'm writing this, it's currently goldfish. Silly stuff Aside.. I honestly came here mostly because I love making friends and finding people to talk to!! But.. I also came here cause I honestly don't believe I have a proper support system at home. My family is more focused on shutting me up than actually making me feel better, and it's NOT helping with my urges of sh, Loneliness, or the thought of unsubscribing to life that's constantly at the back of my head. I have a friend but I don't wanna bother them with my problems anymore. I don't even know how to regulate my emotions properly anymore, and I'm scared that it's affecting my friend's mental health, I want to get better just for them. I try my best to stay positive though.. (and Honorable mention.. I've been clean for 2 years!! Yippeee!!) Anyways it's nice to meet all of you!! Hope to be friends!!
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