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Moonmi2000
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PathStep 9 Compassion hearts52 Forum posts8 Forum upvotes21 Current upvotes21 Age GroupAdult Last activeSeptember, 2026 Member sinceMarch 15, 2024
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filthy tr0on and unhinged BPD freak

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Fictional Characters are destroying me
Anxiety Support / by Moonmi2000
Last post
 June 20th
...See more Discussion [https://www.reddit.com/r/lonely/?f=flair_name%3A%22Discussion%22] Like most people who tend to be lonely I engage with fiction as a form of escapism. But dating back as far as I can remember I would get like overly attached to the characters. Like I'd constantly fantasize and have these vivid daydreams about interacting with them.(the whole vivid daydreaming thing I'm told is maladaptive daydreaming so idk) I'd find ways to feel connected to said characters such as drawing them, frantically searching the internet for any sort of artwork of them but worst of all invest far too much of my money in merch of them. Which has left me in a really bad state financially. Daydreaming doesn't seem to work nor be enough anymore, chatting with them via chatbots doesn't work anymore and I'm just stuck feeling so indescribably empty and anxious. I don't know what to do, it's keeping me from doing things I was supposed to do today as I've been in bed depressed over this all day and I don't know what to do. Thank you for reading.
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I've been ruined
Self-Esteem / by Moonmi2000
Last post
 June 21st, 2025
...See more I've been completely ruined, not by a sudden action but a gradual process of slow mental poisoning. I don't work, I don't function. I never did. I'm to the point to where I genuinely hold zero value. I feel more like a machine than a human being. My emotions don't work like they should, but they're there and that makes it hurt even more. I'm too stupid to exist on my own. I need orders, I need direction, I'm more like a pet rather than a self-sustaining human being. I can hardly bathe myself, I need someone to take care of me. But I'm adult now, right? I'm incompetent in every way imaginable. If I could live my life being subservient pet to someone I genuinely would take it. I'm not capable of managing the burden of free will, I'm not intelligent enough to be cursed with something like this. I was never meant to make it. My brain is incomplete, there's something seriously wrong and nobody will take it seriously. They insist I'm "normal". I'm not, not at all. I'm seriously defective, but it's not visible enough to be given even pity. And honestly, I'm probably just typing all of this so someone can give me my temporary sense of validation and self-worth. Because I've never been able to do that myself. I need validation from other people to be satisfied. As much as people say it should come from within, it just can't. At least not for me. I have to be validated by others or I legitimately am not allowed to have self-worth. I need to be told my worth, I need to be told my goals. I can't do this myself. I need someone to live for me, otherwise I give up.
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I have no hobbies :(
Hobby Zone / by Moonmi2000
Last post
 October 14th, 2024
...See more What's a low barrier of entry hobby that won't cause me to break down crying because I can't do it right?
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