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...See more I hate myself for creating this situation i am dealing with right now, I finally was able to take a drop year after trying hard to convince my parents to let me Invest a year for this exam, i worked really hard in first few months but started to get distracted thanks to my habit of procrastinating, i lost a big chunk of time and my syllabus is like 10% covered, my exam is in next month on 12th of September leaving me almost less than a month now, I am the biggest fool to waste so much time even when my whole family kept reminding me to study, I kept replying them saying i will manage but here i am, I will 100% not get a seat this year so i had to take admission in some other course because i already will break the trust of my parents and they will not let me take another drop year (somehow managed to convince them that if and only if i fail to get a seat this will be my backup) and i decided to study for this exam and the course side by side in thr future, i regret so much because i could have done an awesome job cracking this exam if only i hadn't wasted this much time, my parents think i still have a chance to crack this but in reality i don't, they invested so much money for the study materials and i wasted everything, i talked to my parents about this few months back and they said i still had a chance but i already gave up back then, i gave up, they have hope for me and i am not ready to face my parents when they see my result, i damaged my career life as well as their trust on me, i feel like i dont deserve them, i am just a disappointment, even if i study now as i want to give this exam again, i can't help it but feel like giving up and stop studying and just run away, i know what my results will be but i am too coward to face the consequences, i can't talk about this to them, after this year i want to try again but without online classes i can't crack this exam and for that i will again have to ask them for money, i have collected some but i still need more, i dont have any course i like besides this so i will have to ask them again, i honestly feel like shit for this but my life will be miserable if i dont do this, i wish i had an option to disappear somewhere where i don't disappoint others especially my loved ones, i wish i had the courage to even say sorry for being a daughter like this to them but i am a coward

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