happy on the outside, dead on the inside. silent depression is like quick sand. calm on the surface but the current below will suck you right in. when you think about it, do you really want to be saved? can you really be saved?

i am different, struggling in a world that does not find that shit attractive. common sense and what seems right might seem wrong to another person. it is then you start to question yourself what is really right and what is really wrong? whats wrong with me? am i lost?

All these questions is diverting me from the problem. if you want to talk i expect you to be 100% transparent with me. no bullshit like follow this website's guidelines to divert you to the depression handbook. i want your opinions and advise. i am a listener on another account and a listener to my own friends since preschool. so i probably think the same way as a listener. so lets not waste each other's time


"Almost none of us commit suicide, and almost all of us self-destruct. In some way, in some part of our lives. We drink, or we smoke, we destabilize the good job... and a happy marriage. But these aren't decisions, they're... they're impulses." Dr ve ntress