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Sevarmarmar
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PathStep 1 Compassion hearts61 Forum posts2 Forum upvotes0 Current upvotes0 Age GroupAdult Last activeNovember, 2024 Member sinceDecember 5, 2020
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Yes for 10 years
Depression Support / by Sevarmarmar
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 September 26th, 2022
...See more I think mostly the environment has lots of effects like it started with my father being so strict and me not having a phone at the start of my teenage years and only focusing on studying to lying about the grades to them finding out so they hit me as a punishment and locking me up in a room to study to think about suicide in my early teen Then when getting to college and have a cold personality to the point they would call me emotionless and cold hearted in front of guests to embarrass me and right now no matter what I do I feel nothing like I am numb and life feels emotionless without any passion or desire and only to feel the world is colorless and sometimes wishing that I want to get out of this slump like I am lazy all the time I just sleep I was never like this .
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Considered emotionless
Depression Support / by Sevarmarmar
Last post
 September 25th, 2022
...See more As you saw I am considered emotionless by my family specially my father, when my grandma died when I was 8 I didn't know about it they never told me and when I knew I cried so much in silence my dad never knew he always considered me cold hearted since then I am turning 22 and he always throw this Infront of my face specially when guests are there and I always tell him its not true and my heart breaks , i think I have been depressed all my life but since I went to college I became worse I never had a phone till college and they always punished me for grades and they made me hate school and myself then when I went to college I started being addicted to my phone and got depressed I have no joy in life like the last time I was happy I can't remember it. My dad was so strict to a point I used to lie about my grades and there was one time it was a weekend and I used to watch a tv series I was grade 10 and when he saw me watching TV he was so angry to the point he said to my mom why didn't you miscarriage her just like the other baby and it broke my heart to pieces to the point I hate him now
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