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Shadily3899
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PathStep 61 Compassion hearts40 Forum posts6 Forum upvotes15 Current upvotes15 Age GroupAdult Last activeFebruary, 2026 Member sinceDecember 5, 2025
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Self-Esteem / by Shadily3899
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 December 19th, 2025
...See more I do not believe I am worth the same as anyone else. Not that I am a bad person. I just cant imagine prioritizing anything I need or want above anyone else's needs or wants. I can cognitively understand that it is unreasonable to expect me to work on every want and need in the world before my own. But if someone asks me to do something, if I can physically make myself move, I will work on that before anything I had planned or need. I don't think this is a good way to live. I just don't know how to do anything differently. Because as soon as I try something differently I feel so bad about myself that I almost end myself. The kicker is, I am writing this because of the steps on the growth path. But I am not going to listen to anything I get as a response to this. Some part of me wants to hear that I need to prioritize myself, its the same part that signed up here in the first place. But a much stronger part of me will dismiss any kind word as futile gestures. So thank you for reading, I am sorry I wasted your time.
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Depression Support / by Shadily3899
Last post
 December 15th, 2025
...See more I don't have the big answers to solve my problems. But I know somethings that I could do that would most likely improve my outlook. But I don't do them because it is not certain and it is some amount of effort or consistency required, which I don't have in me. How do I find the energy do make any changes when the outcome is uncertain and everything feels futile?
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