Skip to main content Skip to bottom nav
ShadowMilkCookieLover
2 98 M Embraced 1
PathStep 1 Compassion hearts16 Forum posts3 Forum upvotes8 Current upvotes8 Age GroupAdult Last activeMarch, 2026 Member sinceMarch 18, 2026
Bio
Recent forum posts
ShadowMilkCookieLover profile picture
I'm suffering with social anxiety
Anxiety Support / by ShadowMilkCookieLover
Last post
 March 18th
...See more There's greater issue at hand but I'll mostly talk about my social anxiety So I don't really fully talk to strangers unless necessary and when I get too comfortable with someone I just impulsively do things that I find fun (but that will be for another topic) now they won't let me back in and said I need to see a therapist and improve myself but my social anxiety's preventing me from seeing an actual therapist and I can't afford to pay for a therapy either and I'm too anxious to just randomly approach a listener here. How will I get better help for the bigger issue I'm facing now?
ShadowMilkCookieLover profile picture
I've been a bad person but idk how could I fully improve
ADHD Support / by ShadowMilkCookieLover
Last post
 March 20th
...See more Since childhood I've always struggled to make long-lasting friends without them getting annoyed of me bc of my behavior (I couldn't be sure if I really have any mental disability bc my family couldn't afford getting me a diagnosis) and I struggle to control myself either. Now I mostly just spend time on the internet bc I've became anti-social irl and I thought it's easier online but forming friendship in the internet is very rocky too. Last year, something happened that I really wanna put behind. I've been trying my best to improve my behavior so I couldn't hurt anyone ever again but sometimes it still slips off (tho not as often as before). I've joined another fandom (which is cookie run) and my mental health was already improving after I got obsessed with Shadow Milk Cookie as my comfort character and I found a small community too. But I got too comfortable and despite my best to restraint myself there's still instances that I accidentally made others uncomfortable (for ex: I crashed out when I never saw Shadow Milk Cookie in the beast yeast 15 trailer bc I thought he actually died since I see myself in him). Now I got kicked out of a *** server that I loved bc they found out what I did last year I've been wanting to improve and be a better person but most ppl just won't forgive me and they just ignored my efforts to redeem myself (one of the reasons why I want Shadow Milk Cookie to be redeemed bc I wanted to see in him glimpse of chances I could ever be redeemed myself and be forgiven by everyone at last). All I ever wanted is a group of friends from crk fandom (or just ANY fandom I'm in that I currently hyperfixate on) to hang out with and keep me stable. I've been told I need to seek help and get better before I rejoin that server. Pls tell me I came to the right place to share all these :(
Search more from @ShadowMilkCookieLover
Talk to an expert therapist
Seeking support takes a lot of courage, and you should be proud of yourself for...
Talk to Jill Now
Badges & Awards
6 total badges
Hand Shake First Post Reaching out Helping out First Compassion Forum Friend
Report an issue