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...See more First time posting here. Sorry if this is too long or inappropriate but I have no one to talk to. I'm on vacation with my family and last night was the worst, most embarrassing night I've encountered thus far. We're at a sporting event and my husband get so drunk he almost falls twice, asks me the same question literally 20 or more times, and we lose him in the crowd for a minute. It would have been just bad, but put 10yo kid was with us. He then starts freaking out because he can tell I'm upset, asking if we're breaking up and all of that. He's literally crying over and over. Finally get him calmed down and we have 'fun' at the game. I have not spoken to my husband yet this morning (it's still early-ish). The thing is, aside from last night (which has never happened before, so this is not about that at all. He drank too much too fast), I just feel like misery is what I'm owed or all I'm allowed. Several years ago I had reached out to an old BF and we talked regularly for.a while. Husband found out, we fought. I explained why I felt the need to reach out to my ex (at this point husband and I had not had sex in 3yrs or more. I felt completely undesirable and unloved for the longest). We 'worked it out'. I cut contact and we moved on. So pretty much, I am stuck, feeling grateful that my mess ups didn't end my marriage, but I have to take whatever is given. I could never leave, especially given how my baby reacted when he could just tell I was upset and trying to hold it together. I'm stressed. I'm 49 in a sexless marriage, I'm trying to keep everyone happy and sane and together but I have nobody to do the same for me. I'm hurting so bad right now

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