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TealQueen90
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Let's see. Well, I'm a woman in my 30's. My faith is in Jesus Christ ✝️. Started to read 3 chapters everyday & been successful so far.

I enjoy trying to paint, draw, & learning random facts & german. The key word is "trying", because anxiety makes motivation, energy, & inspiration to learn & improve a real struggle. Heck, it even makes eating a struggle.

I hope that being a member of this place & making connections could help make it feel just a little less scary in this crazy world.

God Bless💚

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Been awhile
Anxiety Support / by TealQueen90
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 November 7th, 2025
...See more It's been awhile since I've been on here. I've been stuck in my head for a long time & trying to get out & stay out is hard & scary sometimes. Again, it's like as soon as something goes right & you start to relax, the anxiety beast wants to bite. It's has me feeling like any progress I've made is not real and I'll crumble like broccoli as soon as something bad does happen. I just want to feel strong & calm & hope the Holy Spirit takes over, so I can get the task that's needed to get through done. Done without tears, shaking, & throwing up. I did make it to a vacation last week & some regualer car maintenance went well. Nothing has happened. For a whole year now, nothing has happened. I should feel good. I do feel better at times, & very thankful to the Lord for everything. Again, I just don't want to crumble. Sorry for the ramble. Thank you to anyone who reads this. From an anxious stranger online to you all "ai love you guys."
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I just want to go.
Anxiety Support / by TealQueen90
Last post
 July 12th, 2025
...See more I just want to go & explore. I want to finally see the rest of the world or at least the rest of the US & not worry about money ever again! I know I must sound ridiculous but that's what I feel. I'm so tired of the money system & how it can hold you back. I'm tired of trying to save up my pto, that doesn't fill up very much or fast, & feeling like I can only use it for possible sick days or one event during the year. Again same with money. I'm not really living! And when I try to get the excitement of maybe going out, that's when the Anxiety beast decides to bite. It nearly cost me my marriage. My husband tries to support me & tell me we'll be fine, nothing has happened & to stop worrying til something does. Today he did admit he was close to being done with me bc of it. He says he understand it when something does happen. Just not when nothing has happened. Now I feel like I just need to hide it better. I don't want to drive him crazy &/or away. I just want to go away with him & feel completely safe again. I do have another therapy appointment in 3 weeks. I hope one day I'll feel safe & free & breathe the sweet air of living again.
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It keeps creepin'
Anxiety Support / by TealQueen90
Last post
 July 1st, 2025
...See more Creep....creep....creep. As I sit still, As I walk & talk, As I go about my day. Creep...creep...creep. Do my best to ignore, Take in a deep breath, Move on & get to work. Creep...creep...creep. I think I'm getting there, I'm eatting again, Not much but enough, Creep...creep...creep. Need to remember, One step at a time, Don't overthink it. Creep...creep...creep. Days go by, Life goes on, So far so good. Creep...creep...creep. It wants to get in, It's not here to protect, Just to strike fear. Creep...creep...creep. So breathe, Breathe, Breathe.
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Default Anxiety Setting
Anxiety Support / by TealQueen90
Last post
 June 23rd, 2025
...See more Hello, I'm completely new to this place and hoping to connect with a lot of you guys. My 1st question: Does anyone have what I consider a default anxiety setting? When eventhough all is going stable & could potenially get better, the feeling of anxiety tries to creep in through any door it can. For reasons, I might never understand but hope to one day, mine is something happening to my car. Such as, it out of nowhere breaks or an accident happens & it drains most or all of my money & cause a domino effect of bad things. And this concern only might go away if something else takes it's place. I'm sorry if this sounds like the least of things to have anxiety. I have other worse traumas to workthrough, but like I said, it's a default anxiety setting. Am I alone here?
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