I just want to go.

@TealQueen90

I hope you find the therapy to be helpful.  Life is so full of variables, it’s hard not to be anxious.  I used to have more anxiety than I do now.  One thing I did was to set really short term goals.  For example, “can I avoid feeling anxious for the next ten minutes?”  I gradually increased my periods of time until I got to around 30 minutes of feeling relatively calm.  My anxiety was episodic, so 30 minutes was just about enough time that the anxiety wave would diminish.  

I also meditate every evening now.  Initially I started with “progressive relaxation” (Google it), but now I can just sit back and within seconds be “in the zone” of relaxation.  

I get not wanting to worry about money all the time.  Maybe I was lucky (?) to grow up in poverty.  We were evicted several times, went without enough to eat sometimes, got the electricity and phone cut off frequently, and usually would end up going a week or two without heat in the winter.

Where does luck come in?  I’m not sure that’s the best word to describe it, but as a little kid, I realized I couldn’t control my dad’s drinking, my mom’s schizophrenia or our financial situation.  The “luck” came in the form of learning how to appreciate the good days and suspend worry about the inevitable bad days that were coming.  

I certainly hope if you have “bad days,” they’re not as bad as ours were, but if you’re human, you’ll have some days better than others.  You may have financial setbacks, or some other disturbing issue.  You might say that the not so good days add value to the better days.  

I doubt if it’s all been smooth sailing for you up to this point, yet here you are, surviving admirably!  I believe you have what it takes to continue doing so.  

With all that said, therapy is still a good idea, if only to get a professional’s take on the best strategy in your case.