Been awhile
It's been awhile since I've been on here.
I've been stuck in my head for a long time & trying to get out & stay out is hard & scary sometimes. Again, it's like as soon as something goes right & you start to relax, the anxiety beast wants to bite. It's has me feeling like any progress I've made is not real and I'll crumble like broccoli as soon as something bad does happen. I just want to feel strong & calm & hope the Holy Spirit takes over, so I can get the task that's needed to get through done. Done without tears, shaking, & throwing up.
I did make it to a vacation last week & some regualer car maintenance went well. Nothing has happened. For a whole year now, nothing has happened. I should feel good. I do feel better at times, & very thankful to the Lord for everything.
Again, I just don't want to crumble.
Sorry for the ramble.
Thank you to anyone who reads this.
From an anxious stranger online to you all "ai love you guys."
@TealQueen90
Welcome back to 7 cups. Although I'm not sure you are pleased to be back, but we are very pleased to have you.
I related a lot to this
"it's like as soon as something goes right & you start to relax, the anxiety beast wants to bite. It's has me feeling like any progress I've made is not real and I'll crumble like broccoli as soon as something bad does happen. I just want to feel strong & calm "
When the anxiety beast bites again, I feel like I have failed, again. Failed on something that others don't even have to try.
I quite like the Buddhist approach to this. The acceptance that **** will happen. And that trying to control your life to always be happy and "right" is doomed to fail. And that it is better to learn how to ride the crises and disasters, than try to prevent them.
But I'm still very much learning how to do this!
Good luck in your journey to peace.
Thanks 🙂
I know it is weird for any of us to be in here, but it is good to know none of us are all alone & can share.
Also "Failed on something that others don't even have to try."
Yeah! It really feels that way!
It stinks that tryin to learn how to ride the waves crisis & disasters, big or small, has to come with a lot of sea sickness & nerves.
