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TheResh
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PathStep 2 Compassion hearts49 Forum posts22 Forum upvotes18 Current upvotes18 Age GroupAdult Last activeOctober, 2026 Member sinceSeptember 24, 2026
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What am I?
Depression Support / by TheResh
Last post
 September 26th
...See more Am I a human? What is a human? Like is there something universal to say what is human and what's not? The dog protecting its owner's children is human, or at least has a degree of good behavior that most humans have not. So why? Why am I human? When a dog is more loyal than me, an elephant is more connected with its family than me, when an old turtle has seen more of the world than I would ever dream. Is it the choice? But most creatures have a choice, it's not just the animal in there, they have souls, I have one too, mine is much darker than theirs, so why? They don't get these crazy thoughts, they are much purer than me, so why the *** am I human? Is it because I said so? What even makes you human? Being happy? So most homosapiens are not humans after all, WHAT THE *** IS WRONG WITH ME?
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Who am I?
Depression Support / by TheResh
Last post
 September 25th
...See more So, I really don't know what to do, my depression keeps getting worse, I have thoughts all the time, bad ones. I need help and I have no one. Please help me. I think I will..... He just wants to keep on talking, why isn't he shutting up? I took the meds and yet I hear him, he is crying, he is hurt, I don't know, who is he? Who am I? Am I the one crying? Or am I the one yelling those horrible things? And why do I hear both of them? Am I a completely different person? Like a third party watching this man yell at this crying kid in complete darkness? I hear him crying, he won't stop, it's too dark, I can't see him, I just hear his pained cries. Will he calm down if I stop existing? Can I stop him that way? What if I wasn't me and I was shutting myself up by stopping him? Who do I do then? Can I stop the man that is yelling at him? I have done it before, he keeps coming back, changing his face, every time he comes back the kid's crying becomes deafening, he is always crying, but sometimes I can manage, but when the man is there, the kid screams, and tries to claw his way out of my mind, is it my mind? Is the kid trying to take control? Or is he trying to escape? Am I trying to escape? The man's voice is cracking sometimes, he is crying too. He is crying too, he keeps yelling those horrible things while tears stream down his face, I can't see him, but I know that's the case, because I think he is me? Or am I him? The most awful feeling comes to me when I think that I am neither one of those? If I am not the kid, and not the man, then where is my voice? Why can't I hear me, why can't they hear me? Am I just a shell? The body where they live? When will this end?
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I need help
Depression Support / by TheResh
Last post
 October 5th
...See more I don't think there is any possibility for me to be happy, I really don't like who I am, ***! I don't even know how I am to begin with!! This is just cruelty at this point, I am surrounded by people yet I can't reach them, it's like I am a rock at the bottom of the ocean and they are just flouting on the surface, so happy, so together, and so alive, while I just am cold, afraid, lonely, angry and just awful all together, I hate how I look, how I sound, and even how I speak, let this nightmare end.
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