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I have no desire to talk to anybody nor do I desire friends, what is wrong with me?

Relationship Stress / by Wanonymous

September 11th, 2019

...See more As long as I can remember, I have had little to no desire to talk to people. I remember when I was a kid (maybe 6 years old) I would be happy when there were other people around me to do the talking for me because I just didnt want to say anything unless there was something to say and most of the time I dont have anything to say to people. I had a friend who always asked me why I dont go online to chat with him. I made up excuses, but to be fair, Its because I never wanted to. I always preferred to do anything else but talking. And so I felt like that friendship restricted my freedom. I feel like that any friendship will. As the years went by and we moved to different countries, I eventually stopped talking to him all together. I just didnt want to. Im at university now and how no friends, just people I know and say a few words to if I meet. I dread meeting people in settings where I cannot leave when I want to. For example, I hate meeting somebody I know on the bus, because Ill have to force myself to talk for the entire bus ride or be quiet which can get painfully awkward. I just dont have anything to say to people. If they say something interesting, I might ask a question or two to satisfy my curiosity but thats about it. I find that the more time I spend with people, the more I eventually start to avoid them. Its like I dont want any close relationships...I dont want my freedom to be limited nor do I want to talk to them. I dont hate people, I care about them, but I have nothing to say to them. The only person I care talking to is my brother yet Im often quiet even around him. I just dont like being this way. It makes life difficult when conversing with people always feels like a chore. I cant even look people in the eye that much, its too weird or I find I loose focus on what theyre saying and only focus on their eyes. Ill add that I have social anxiety but aith the exception of the eye thing, I have always bren this way. I even remember being annoyed when aunts and cousins would talk to me while I was sitting and minding my own business. I just didnt want to talk to them.

Physical symptoms of depression? or of something else?

Disability Support / by Wanonymous

April 2nd, 2019

...See more Hello everyone. Id really appreciate if you would take the time to read my story. I wonder if anyone has been through the same and if youve learnt something after this (and if so please do tell). Im a 21 year old male. About 6 years ago I remember being bothered by strange symptoms. I would wake up and feel...disgusting. I would feel drugged and fatigued. This would last the entire day. I couldnt think clearly anymore, my memory got worse and I felt it affected my performance in school. This feeling was constant. I kept pushing myself through high school hoping this thing would go away but it didnt. I saw doctors and had basic blood work done to check for the most common things. As the years passed by and I entered university I could no longer just push myself and try to ignore how I feel. The workload was more now, so I couldnt just push myself and get by as I had done in school. 4 years since I started university, I havent even finished my degree, Ive completed half of it and failed course after course several times as I was too fatigued to do anything at all, I wouldnt read for weeks. Throughout this period I saw doctor after doctor thinking something had to show up as my main troubles were the physical symptoms. The symptoms are constant fatigue and desire to rest, feeling drugged and zombie-like, constant strong tingling all over body, IBS-like symptoms, constant body pain all over. 2-3 years ago I also started having difficulty fully feeling emotions, sort of numb feeling that is constantly there now, like Im too fatigued to even feel emotions. I also find I dont have the energy to really care about things the way I used too, as the fatigue has seemed to intensify. The only abnormalities were an elevated rheumatoid factor which was extremely high (624) and a mildly elevated IgM. Nothing has been found, after an extreme number of doctor appointments and test after test. I saw a psychologist and he said my test score indicated severe depression, but at the same time he said he doesnt think Im depressed as I complain mostly of physical symptoms and I still do feel optimistic and am motivated to do things and I do feel happy from time to time. He also said he hasnt had any depressed patients with a similar picture. Yet the plan now is to try pain medication and antidepressants as nothing helps, not even exercise helps that much (helps for about one hour but then the symptoms are back). So Im left a bit confused and wondering if depression can present itself in this way? Maybe I was depressed all this time but didnt know it? Does anyone have a similar experience?

physical symptoms of depression

Depression Support / by Wanonymous

March 6th, 2019

...See more Hello everyone, new member here. Id really appreciate if you would take the time to read my story. I wonder if anyone has been through the same and if youve learnt something after this (and if so please do tell). Im a 21 year old male. About 6 years ago I remember being bothered by strange symptoms. I would wake up and feel...disgusting. I would feel drugged and fatigued. This would last the entire day. I couldnt think clearly anymore, my memory got worse and I felt it affected my performance in school. This feeling was constant. I kept pushing myself through high school hoping this thing would go away but it didnt. I saw doctors and had basic blood work done to check for the most common things. As the years passed by and I entered university I could no longer just push myself and try to ignore how I feel. The workload was more now, so I couldnt just push myself and get by as I had done in school. 4 years since I started university, I havent even finished my degree, Ive completed half of it and failed course after course several times as I was too fatigued to do anything at all, I wouldnt read for weeks. Throughout this period I saw doctor after doctor thinking something had to show up as my main troubles were the physical symptoms. The symptoms are constant fatigue and desire to rest, feeling drugged and zombie-like, constant strong tingling all over body, IBS-like symptoms, constant body pain all over. 2-3 years ago I also started having difficulty fully feeling emotions, sort of numb feeling that is constantly there now, like Im too fatigued to even feel emotions. I also find I dont have the energy to really care about things the way I used too, as the fatigue has seemed to intensify. The only abnormalities were an elevated rheumatoid factor which was extremely high (624) and a mildly elevated IgM. Nothing has been found, after an extreme number of doctor appointments and test after test. I saw a psychologist and he said my test score indicated severe depression, but at the same time he said he doesnt think Im depressed as I complain mostly of physical symptoms and I still do feel optimistic and am motivated to do things and I do feel happy from time to time. He also said he hasnt had any depressed patients with a similar picture. Yet the plan now is to try pain medication and antidepressants as nothing helps, not even exercise helps that much (helps for about one hour but then the symptoms are back). So Im left a bit confused and wondering if depression can present itself in this way? Maybe I was depressed all this time but didnt know it? Does anyone have a similar experience?

Pain associated with rheumatic illness, how do you manage to do anything at all?

Disability Support / by Wanonymous

February 13th, 2018

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