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...See more This story is way too long to get into details, but to make a long story short, it was on and off for around 5 years. I recently, made a few mistakes, nothing too serious in my opinion; no cheating or abuse, but she broke up with me. I called her tonight to tell her that I was sorry, that I felt like I never got a chance to show her that I could do better, and to see if we could start over and give things another try, once again. Bad idea. She forgave me but said no, which wasn't entirely a surprise. I told her that I understood and accepted it, and that I knew I would turn out fine and had a good life ahead of me, but I just wanted to get a few things off my chest that I wanted to say, get some closure, and end on a better note than we did previously, without any animosity. She made me feel pretty stupid for telling her that, saying that the last time we ended it was enough and that I was just going around in circles. I told her that I was trying to be as sincere as possible, she was making me feel like a piece of crap and that I was still having trouble forgiving myself for what I did to make her break up with me. She told me that that was my problem, that I needed to grow a pair, and that her new boyfriend was calling her, and hung up immediately. That freaking hurt. Looking back I realize that I gave much more than I got in return, and I let her lead me on and play with my emotions. 5 years of my life I can't get back. Why did I let myself be led on for so long? Why is it so hard for me to let go? Why couldn't I see that she wasn't the one for me when it was so obvious she wasn't? I made some careless mistakes, but I tried my very best to make her feel loved and I would never have been mean to her. Did I really mess up here or is she being too unforgiving?

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