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i saw you at a party recently and wrote this while you were sitting across
Relationship Stress / by alecam182
Last post
 February 6th, 2020
...See more if i had known 4 years ago that you would disappoint and break me this way, i would have never gone to that party. i would have stayed at home and just watched tv... not go to that stupid party where i saw your stupid cute face that i instantly fell for. it wasnt just your face, it was the fact that you were smart and had a lot more decency than the guys i had met. i was instantly attracted and with a lot of work i was able to get you and damn right i felt lucky. i felt lucky that i was able to get someone like you who actually loved me... and i loved back. our love was amazing, fireworks going off and the chemistry between us can be seen from miles away. i adored you although i didnt have the right words to express it. i was afraid to lose you and i know you knew that. i know you knew that it broke me into a million peaces when you wouldnt talk to me and leave me thinking that it was me who did something wrong, that it was me that had something wrong with her. i know you knew i waited on you, to talk, because i loved talking to you. i loved staying up and talking to you because i loved you, i loved you with absolutely everything i had but i never told you that.. i never told you anything. i just assumed you knew and i assumed how you felt too because i never in a million years thought you would call me to end things with me. never did i think id have to prepare for the last hug, kiss, talk, eye contact. never did i think id have to prepare to see you with someone else, the lips that once were on mine.. on hers
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letting it out
Relationship Stress / by alecam182
Last post
 October 10th, 2019
...See more I dont think you ever knew how much I truly loved you. How could I not? You were amazing when I met you, three years ago. I shouldnt be hurt by the fact that you changed, it is a part of growing up after all. Its just.. the things you did wasnt like you at all.. it wasnt who I knew. The person I knew would never hurt me.. you would never hurt me. Why did you do it and why so suddenly. when did you realize that i wasnt enough? When did you realize you didnt love me anymore? Its nearly been a year since you gave me the call that you didnt want me anymore... the one where you said it was my fault. That it was me who changed and it was me who made you overthink. When in reality it was so you could go with her. I know I ask myself what she has that I dont but theres a lot she has that I dont. I knew months before there was something, I even told you. You laughed it off and told me I was just overthinking. Now look at you, youre still with her. You cross my mind every day, without a doubt. But there are nights where I miss you so much that I need to let it out. I miss your hugs and the way you used to look at me. I miss our talks, I miss everything about you. Why did you have to leave? I need you so much you dont even know. Im at my worst and youre not here with me. I can no longer go to you for comfort. I just have to let myself drown in these thoughts I cant turn off. youll always have a special place in my heart, even if you crumbled my heart and soul into millions of pieces. i love you
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