letting it out
I dont think you ever knew how much I truly loved you. How could I not? You were amazing when I met you, three years ago. I shouldnt be hurt by the fact that you changed, it is a part of growing up after all. Its just.. the things you did wasnt like you at all.. it wasnt who I knew. The person I knew would never hurt me.. you would never hurt me. Why did you do it and why so suddenly. when did you realize that i wasnt enough? When did you realize you didnt love me anymore? Its nearly been a year since you gave me the call that you didnt want me anymore... the one where you said it was my fault. That it was me who changed and it was me who made you overthink. When in reality it was so you could go with her. I know I ask myself what she has that I dont but theres a lot she has that I dont. I knew months before there was something, I even told you. You laughed it off and told me I was just overthinking. Now look at you, youre still with her. You cross my mind every day, without a doubt. But there are nights where I miss you so much that I need to let it out. I miss your hugs and the way you used to look at me. I miss our talks, I miss everything about you. Why did you have to leave? I need you so much you dont even know. Im at my worst and youre not here with me. I can no longer go to you for comfort. I just have to let myself drown in these thoughts I cant turn off. youll always have a special place in my heart, even if you crumbled my heart and soul into millions of pieces. i love you
@alecam182 I hope today is a better day for you. I feel so much for you, I've gone through this. Sometimes understanding the other person was not like you, did not think like you and will never feel things like you do is important. you say they changed? Same here. I've done so much talking and research and it turns out in my case, I was love bombed... basically showered with affection, compliments, love, spoilt rotten all very quickly into the relationship, and then it slowly changed, he slowly changed. And I spent years chasing the person i fell in love with. But that person never existed, it is a personality thing and i will never understand it because i am genuine. I'm sharing this as it's helped me move on and understand no matter how hard i tried, he was never capable of love. (his case, abusive childhood and abandonment issues, not all persons evolve like this but sadly for me, he did..)Hes with someone else now, spoiling her rotten, loving her like she's never been loved, but I know it is only a matter of time before it changes, like all his relationships. I just hope, she gets out sooner than I did. I hope you find some resolve x