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alienprincess444
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is it because of you?
Depression Support / by alienprincess444
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 August 27th, 2025
...See more i think i’m uncomfortable with my emotions and unable to reach out or talk about my problems with people because my parents never did. i never saw them feel anything other than happy and angry, and sadness has always been a sensitive topic in my house. my dad wasn’t around for a good chunk of my childhood, and my mom is weird about feeling sad so naturally i learned to bottle things up and not show anybody anything but happiness. i’ve only seen her cry a few times, and every time it was uncomfortable and tense because we don’t do that in front of each other. she’s only seen me cry a few times since i was a little kid, one of which being after a suicide attempt. i didn’t really think much of her being emotionally unavailable until then, because her first instinct was to get angry, take my phone, and angrily tell me that she “guessed she had to take the day off work tomorrow”. i blame and resent them for my inability to open up to people and be serious in serious situations. especially if you know you and the person you’re having a child with have struggled with depression and mental illness, wouldn’t it be important to talk to them about it and give them an outlet for their feelings? would it not be better to tell them that it’s okay to feel sad rather than to banish the feeling and shut down at the mention of anything sad? maybe i'm just angry and i don’t understand everything yet, but i feel cheated.
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Depression Support / by alienprincess444
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 June 1st, 2025
...See more i’ve been thinking for the past few weeks about whether i will or won’t have kids and i don’t think i will because honestly i think that bringing somebody into this world against their will with the only way out having to be something that inflicts pain on either you or others is horrible, but i just wish my parents had thought the same. why would you put somebody on this planet knowing that a) it’s going to get worse and b) they didn’t ask to be put here. i didn’t ask to be put here, i can’t be taken out without a trace which makes it infinitely harder, and i can not seem to cope no matter how hard i try. i’m constantly angry at my parents and my family and can never figure out why, but i think i’m just angry because they put me here.
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